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from: "Maurice" <postage@jps.net>

Toto Bardoque Update:

The Toto Bardoque was attended by more Gombies than expected, unfortunately
(or fortunately) Toto did not show up.

It was kind of humorous watching all these Gombies trying to find little
Toto to Bardoque. They devised all manner of methods to capture the little
Doggie, but Toto seemed too illusive. As time went on, as it is apt to do,
some Gombies got a little annoyed, lost, more hungry, and diverted into
party chit-chat:

Gomblion: You know, some are thinking about copyrighting their minds.

Gombear: Why not just patent your body?

Gombtin: Would that include the mind?

Gombgirl: But what is the point? Why would anyone want your body-mind when
they have their own?

Gombtin: They feel something is missing in their own and maybe you got
something they want.

Gombgirl: You mean someone would like to look like Gombear?

Gombtin: …or the Tin Man

(Laughter)

Gombear: Yes, you see the Tin Man should have a patent on that tin body.

Gomblion: And the Wonderful Wizard of Oz, that's a copyright if ever I saw
one.

Gombear: I am hungry and why are we waiting for for Godo…

Gombgirl: That's Toto, Toto…you are waiting to find Toto. And what about
Toto? Can we patent Toto too?

Gombtin: We can't even find Toto, how are we going to patent? Someone said
they saw Toto with a girl on a bicycle going in the general direction of Oz.

Gombear: What I wonder is why you think a Gombie is worth a patent?

Gombtin: Well, suppose you had Betty Davis eyes or the voice of that girl in
the Wizard of Oz?

Gomblion: I bet that whole cast has a copyright somewhere.

Gombear: So you think you are worth a patent?

Gomblion: Why not? Would not that help prove I was worth something?

Gombear: Gombies are a dime a dozen…

Gomblion: All the more reason to get a patent. Lots of Gombies but each is
different and special, are they not?

Gombgirl: But then why patent? If it is the uniqueness in each Gombie that
is special why would a Gombie want another Gombie's material?

Gombear: Because they don't know what's special about them?

Gombgirl: Maybe we should ask the Bardoque Wizard?

All Gombies in unison: We're off to see the wonderful Wizard of Bardoque…

(Laughter)

(In the Crystal Palace of Many Mirrors)

Wizard: I never promised you a rose garden.

Gomblion: But you offered a Toto Bardoque…

Wizard: And you have not found a Toto to Bardoque.

Gombtin: Why should we find Toto? I feel rusty.

Gombear: And I'm hungry.

Gombgirl: And tired. And what's the point?

Wizard: Did you follow the Golden Umbilical Cord to get here? Are you hungry
and tired enough? Do you already see the meaningless copies of yourselves?
Do you want yet another dream? And no Toto, no Toto? Don't you see, you are
the Bardoque. To find Toto you have to Be Toto, then you can copy and patent
or not copy and patent what you will.

Gombgirl: You mean I have to lose my Gombie life to gain Eternal Life?

Gombear: I don't want to die.

Gombtin: Holy smoke!

Gomblion: I want Toto, or perhaps, my clone would do?

Wizard: Yes, that is what most Gombies want, some substitute, some delusion,
some dream life. In fact, that is the definition of who you are as Gombies.
A Gombie can't be much more than a celluloid dream, an object in a movie.
Are you even alive? Does the shadow have any substance? Let me tell you,
with absolute certainty, you Gombies will never find Toto. You will never
find Toto Reality because whenever you find a Toto a Gombie disappears.

Gombtin: Oh my God!

Gombear: What's to be done? What's to be done?

Wizard: Gombear, you remind me a little of Alice. Perhaps a rabbit hole
would do; and when you meet the Queen, let her chop your head off.

Gombgirl: I'm sick and tired of…

Wizard: Good. More. Get more sick and tired of Gombieism. You need to suffer
more…get stuck and staked, roasted in the fire of the Bardoque Party Grill
until there is nothing left but Life; and some will want to eat you in
remembrance of your body-mind, obviously no copyright needed.

Gombear: This is disgusting.

Wizard: Well, perhaps a statue for you Gombear. We'll take your ashes and
make a statue out of them (patent pending) and call it The Ash-Gombear. What
do you think?

Gombear: Disgusting.

Wizard: But don't you want your life to have some purpose, meaning? Ha! Ha!
Ha! Hey, you all, come a little closer (They gather around the Wizard who
whispers)…Do you think Toto has any purpose? (Wizard breaks out in loud
laughter) Ha! Ha! Ha!

Gomblion: I'm getting the hell outa here!

Wizard: Will, give my regards to those other Sidpa Gombies on Broadway.

Maurice: Love Ya…

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From: Xanma@aol.com

As I go along understanding becomes simpler and simply surprising. How easy
it can be to shift awareness from
what I am aware of - sense impressions, thoughts, feelings -
to awareness itself. It's no more complicated than that,
yet because we have become complication itself simplicity
seems unreal and valueless. We have reversed everything
in the attempt to create meaning where it is not. We can
return to real meaning - simple beingness - by looking at the
values and identities we have made up, with detachment. Then
by looking at what is looking. Then by being that.

As for me,
the feeling of laughter
deep in my body
lets me know
I'm free.

Xan

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What is the difference between your view of reality & that of a saint?

The saint knows that all of reality is a sublime chess-game w/God, & that
his beloved has just made such a brilliant move, that he is now constantly
tripping over joy & bursting out laughing: 'I surrender'

Whereas you, my dear, I'm afraid you still think you have a thousand
serious moves.

(This is some Sufi poem I think - I'm writing it from memory...)

Love,
Toon

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From: Tim Gerchmez <fewtch@eskimo.com>


Hi List,

Last night I was reading a book called "Questioning Krishnamurti," which
contains a lot of "interviews" with the man conducted by many different
people.

My feeling is that J. Krishnamurti was one of the greatest *philosophers*
of nonduality of all time. I think the reason why his message "gets
through" to so few is that people are not looking for philosophy, they are
looking for Divinity.

Krishnamurti stuck completely to practical matters, showing a clear path to
pure Advaita. Yet his methods were a "turn-off" to too many people. They
were *too* scientific and rational. Rationality goes a long way when it
comes to the pure sciences, but with spirituality it only goes so far.
Krishnamurti was perhaps the "purest" jnani I've ever encountered in my
readings... more so than even Shankara, and he was even more practical than
Buddha. He rarely touched the human heart. He only occasionally referred
to the importance of appreciating beauty. His approach was to go directly
to the source, bypassing all else along the way. Question, question,
question was Krishnamurti's "motto." In the energy of the question lies
the answer, he tells us. And this is truth. This man was unquestionably
"realized." Yet, his teachings were largely unable to satisfy the needs of
the human heart. They appealed to the mind only.

Hari OM,

Tim

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Thanks for your report, Tim.
It coincides with a great
deal of opinion among
nondualists, both "realized"
and aspirants. Do you
remember Jerry's
Krishnamurti anecdote? He
seems in accord with you
about the writings while
seeing through to the heart
of the man through personal
encounter. If you're
interested, you might want
to read "Krishnamurti's
Notebook," perhaps the most
overtly poetic and mystical
of his many tomes. One
rarely catches a glimpse of
this aspect of him through
his many books of dialogues
and lectures, but it is most
definitely there.

Much love -- Bruce

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Following is a passage from the book
"J.Krishnamurti as I Knew Him" by
Susunaga Weeraperuma.

THE INFINITE

K fully understood the futility of attempting to
describe the indescribable. He was primarily
concerned with the removal of obstacles, the
unconditioning of the mind so to speak, so
that the mind itself is metamorphosed into a
purified receptacle for the visitation of the
Infinite. In this respect, K was so very much
like the Buddha, who also had refused to make
positive statements about the Infinite but preferred
alluding to its nature by a series of negative
declarations. Nirvana was indirectly called the
unborn, the uncreated, the unoriginated and
the unformed. The conditioned mind, according
to K, is incapable of communicating with the
unconditioned state or the otherness. Between
the conditioned and the unconditioned no
relationship whatsoever is possible.

The evening when K referred to the Infinite
with intense feeling is one of my happiest
recollections. "Believe me, I only see a
fragment of the Infinite," he said. Then after
wiping the tears off his ecstatic face, he
added: "You cannot see it all. Such is the
immensity of the Infinite."

Be Well,
KKT

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TimG:
Even with clear signs that
his teachings were not "getting through" to many, still he continued with
what he believed was the best way to "teach." I believe on his deathbed he
was asked if he felt anyone had ever understood/applied his teachings, and
he replied "Nobody at all." And then weakly, "perhaps if they continue to
live the teachings..." A life dedicated to selfless service to the
intrinsic rightness of what is perceived as truth, a driving need to
communicate that truth, to point others to the freedom he himself found...
this to me is so rare that it's almost worthy of worship. This man was a
saint, in his way.

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In his early years Krishnamurti wrote a great deal of beautiful lyric
poetry; and his poetical and mystical side is evident in all the works
he actually wrote, as contrasted with the transripts of his talks. For
example, his three volumes of Commentaries on Living, in which each
chapter begins with a lovely evocation of Place from one who is totally
aware, without a trace of attachment or aversion.

And I know from my own experience that although on the lecture platform
he was a tiger, off the platform he was a lamb.

OM shantih,

Bob

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J.K. was a guy who had an extraordinary life, proclaimed as virtually an
incarnated Godin his childhood, and rebelling against that. Here's a bit of
stuff he wrote in 1922, when he was 27, about a life-changing event, as
quoted in Krishnamurti: The Years of Awakening, by Mary Lutyens(1975);
"...Then on the 17th August, I felt acute pain at the nape of my neck and I
had to cut down my meditation to fifteen minutes. The pain instead of getting
better as I had hoped grew worse. The climax was reached on the 19th. I could
not think, nor was I able to do anything, and I was forced by friends here to
retire to bed. Then I became almost unconscious, though I was well aware of
what was happening around me. I came to myself at about noon each day. On the
first day while I was in that state and more conscious of the things around
me, I had the most extraordinary experience. There was a man mending the
road; that man was myself; the pickaxe he held was myself; the very stone he
was breaking up was a part of me; the tender blade of grass was my very
being, and the tree beside the man was myself... I was in everything, or
rather everything was in me, inanimate and animate, the mountain, the worm,
and all breathing things...
The morning of the next day...My head was pretty bad and the top part
felt as though many needles were being driven in...When I had sat thus
(meditating) for some time, I felt myself going out of my body, I saw myself
sitting down with the delicate tender leaves of the tree over me. I was
facing the east. In front of me was my body and over my head I saw the Star,
bright and clear. Then I could feel the vibrations of the Lord Buddha; I
beheld the Lord Maitreya and Master K.H.(Koot Hoomi), I was so happy, calm
and at peace. I could still see my body and was hovering near it. There was
such profound calmness both in the air and within myself, the calmness of the
bottom of a deep unfathomable lake. Like the lake, I felt my physical body,
with its mind and emotions, could be ruffled on the surface but nothing nay
nothing could disturb the calmness of my soul. The Presence of the mighty
Beings was with me for some time and then They were gone. I was supremely
happy for I had seen. Nothing could ever be the same..."

andrew

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Warren wrote:


K tried to appeal to people strictly through the frontal lobes, and the vast
majority of human beings simply aren't driven from there. This is not to
cast aspersions on anybody, just an observation.

(and)

K stressed the importance of appreciating beauty, especially of nature,
all his life. He
frequently bemoaned the fact that most people are so insensitive to beauty.

Speaking of K, has anybody out there read "Lives in the Shadow", by
Rajagopal's daughter? I didn't agree with her overall assessment of K (I
think she knew him too well to see his greatness), but her story of K's
30-year affair with her mother (Rajagopal's wife) rang true. I suppose this
revelation was intended to diminish our regard for K - in my case, it
actually increased it (but maybe I'm strange :-). It also explained the
sharp turn-about in K's teaching about sexual matters, which his biographer
Miss Luytens noticed but was unable to explain.

Warren (I'm new)

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Jerry wrote:

It must be the full moon. I don't read much Krishnamurti,
but I picked up a book of his about three days ago and have
been reading it. It is called The Book of Life and consists
of one brief passage per day for each day of the year, and
one theme for each week of the year, so 52 themes. This is
the most accessible Krishnamurti I've seen. Listen:

"Truth or understanding comes in a flash, and that flash has
no continuity; it is not within the field of time. Do see
this for yourself. Understanding is fresh, instantaneous. It
is not the continuity of something that has been. What has
been cannot bring you understanding. As long as one is
seeking a continuity -- wanting permanency in relationship,
in love, longing to find peace everlasting, and all the rest
of it -- one is pursuing something that is within the field
of time and therefore does not belong to the timeless."

Welcome, Warren, to this gathering. I will say one other
thing about the time I approached Krishanmurti after his
talk back in 1980 at Ojai. Please do not take this as any
personal favoring of 'me'. It was not that. But this must
exemplify his attentiveness toward fellow man. For after
having spoken for an hour, this 85 year old man, turned to
me as though he had been expecting me or waiting for me, as
though he had known me. He wasn't just being gracious. He
showed care. Pham mentioned infinity. Tim mentioned
elsewhere about seeing infinity in one's eyes.
Krishnamurti's entire form held that 'look' of infinity. So
when Krishnamurti turned to greet me and shake my hand, it
was infinity turning toward me. That night my chest was full
energy. It was clear that he transmitted it to me. I'd never
known it before or after. It was a kind of initiation. Other
people were surprised I'd approached him, as nobody was
around him at all except for one other gentleman. But my
feeling was that I had to meet him. It was not something I
had planned to do. I found myself walking toward him.

---Jerry

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From: Gloria Lee

Since its a day to quote J.Krishnamuti, here is a favorite. The context sets
it up..tho to me the last line goes off like fireworks.

So what is important is to see the truth of something, and not ask how to
carry it out-which really means that you don't see the truth of it. When you
meet a cobra on the road you don't ask, "What am I to do?" You understand
very well the danger of a cobra and you stay away from it. But you have
never really examined all the implications of envy; nobody has ever talked
to you about it, gone into it very deeply with you. You have been told that
you must not be envious, but you have never looked into the nature of envy;
you have never observed how society and all the organized religions are
built on it, on the desire to become something. But the moment you go into
envy and really see the truth of it, envy drops away. To ask, "How am I to
do it?" is a thoughtless question because when you are really interested in
something which you don't know how to do, you go at it and soon begin to
find out. If you sit back and say, "Please tell me a practical way to get
rid of greed" you will continue to be greedy. But if you inquire into greed
with an alert mind, without any prejudice, and if you put your whole being
into it, you will discover for yourself the truth of greed;

and it is the truth that frees you, not your looking for a way to be free.

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Xan offers 2 quotes from Papaji:


from Papaji

"From birth to death you have lived for others. Even before birth your
parents were expecting you. When you were born you already belonged to them.
Can you spare just a few moments solely for yourself? Leave all
definition behind. Immediately upon birth, you were already possessed. Then
some priest came to initiate you into this fold or sect. You then belonged to
that religion.
In truth, you are not only son of God, you are God itself. But who knows
this religion? In truth, you have no concept of religion at all. You are
pure, immaculate, conscious Self. Freedom itself."

(and)

From: Xanma@aol.com

from Papaji

"Only the Truth is and you are That!
You Are the unchanging Awareness in which all activities takes place.
To deny this is to suffer, to know this is Freedom.

It is not difficult to realize this because it is your True Nature.
Simply Inquire 'Who am I?' and Watch Carefully.
Do not make effort and do not stir a thought.
Look within, approach with all-devotion and stay as Heart.
Keep vigilant and you will see that nothing will arise.

This is the trick of how to keep the mind quiet
and how to win Freedom. This doesn't take time
because Freedom is always Here.
You simply have to watch: where does mind arise from?
Where does thought come from? What is the source of this thought?
Then you will see that you have always been Free
and that everything has been a dream."

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