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March 21, 2000:
New Eyes on Ram Dass, by Christiana P. Duranczyk
March 22, 2000: Eckhart Tolle at Inner Directions, by
Christiana P. Duranczyk
March 23, 2000: Meeting Eckhart
Tolle, by Chuck Hillig
March 24, 2000: Spreading into my
entire .... really entire, by Alone
March 25, 2000: The Self Alone is
the Reality, by Sri Ramana Maharshi
March 26, 2000: Patience, by Osho
March 27, 2000: Integrity and Unbounded
Awareness: Recent Observations of Nonduality List,
introduced and edited by Christiana P. Duranczyk
March 28, 2000: EST and the Forum, by
Simon Crosby
March 29, 2000: Meet John Gaeta,
Visual Effects Supervisor for 'The Matrix'
March 30, 2000: Matrix Within
Matrix Within Matrix, by Gene Poole
March 31, 2000: Cafe Writings, by
David Hodges
April 1, 2000: Untitled, by
Bernadette Roberts
April 2, 2000: On The Pile with
Kevin Costner and a Couple of Other Guys, by O.H.
April 3, 2000: Ah, So, by O.H.
April 4, 2000: The Nisargadatta
Song of I Am
April 5, 2000: Self Knowledge - A
Short Essay, by Tim Gerchmez
April 6, 2000: Considering Papaji
and Enlightenment on Nonduality
April 7, 2000: I and my Father
are One, by Peter Schoonheim Samara
April 8, 2000: Might we just once
listen to the children
April 9, 2000: Mipham's Beacon of
Certainty, by John Whitney Petit
April 10, 2000: God, the Great
Thief, by Gene Poole
April 11, 2000: Only INTENTIONAL
Action ... Bears A Fruit, by KKT
April 12, 2000: Meditations on my
True Nature, by Helga Schleiter Smith
April 13, 2000: The Witness -- A
Short Essay, by Tim Gerchmez
I've just
(March 20, 2000) returned from the Inner Directions
Gathering... a gathering of 500 people, some remarkable
teachers, music, chanting, humor, Rumi and fellowship of
being. All this amidst the beauty of La Jolla, with the
roaring surf under a full moon.
There is much to share, but for now, (it has been)
suggested that I might share my reflections about being
with Ram Dass.
For me, as for many of us, Ram Dass has been a guide, a
teacher, an elder, for over 30 years. This is my first
experience of being with him since his stroke. It was
painful, poignant and opened my heart more than anything
he's ever offered before.
He came on stage in a wheelchair with long hair and black
glasses. One side of his body seems relatively paralyzed.
He announced that he'd been 'stroked', and later added
that he'd been 'stroked by his guru'. He announced that
he now suffers from aphasia (a loss or impairment of the
power to use or comprehend words resulting from brain
damage). He said that he is not doing well. Forced to
lose his identity as 'holy man', he sits quite human in
his wheelchair.
His mind now, like a beautiful bird with one clipped
wing. Again and again, for several hours, he tries to
take flight of idea. Again and again caught in midair
unable to catch the current. Mind is not connecting the
dots and sentences are left in midair.. incomplete. The
evening is a cluster of incomplete sentences.. incomplete
thoughts endeavoring to communicate. One witnesses his
angst.
Then his good friend Krishna Das and his entourage, who
are also on stage, begin to perform their magical Hindu
chants, and Ram Dass joins them with his heart, body and
soul (a term he now uses frequently).
Many years ago I heard him say.. "People ask me
about reincarnation, and I always respond.. why be
concerned about reincarnation, most of us have not yet
*incarnated*." Now he says that his body has forced
him to
*incarnate*.
As the chanting continues, he removes the black glasses.
Apparently he has recently undergone Cataract surgery..
another sobering irony from the founder of SEVA
organization which raises funds for Cataract surgery in
Third World countries.
Taking off his glasses, he leaves mind behind and moves
with his heart.
My heart's tears join his as I realize the profound love
this man has always offered.
He is now an exquisite mirror for us of our brokeness. I
watch many not want to look. The crowd thins as people
become restless, tired, perhaps not getting what their
minds think they want. Not seeing what he offers.
I watch these thoughts also arise in me as the hours
extend, and I realize that I have never before been in
such a presentation. Observing this mind's discomfort, I
recognize that we are not accustomed to broken sentences,
to dangling thoughts, to incoherence. We are accustomed
to semi-complete idea packages. Yet again and again, I
see that what he is now offering is perfect dissonance to
break the pattern. I kept returning to my heart and my
heart kept expanding with his.
It was a beautiful and painful honor to sit in this
humble brokenness, profound teaching and Love with this
man. And from the shards of thoughts, a Presence is
communicated beyond what he was attempting to say, yet
which includes his new offering. He sees with new eyes
and speaks of three eyes.. the body, soul and divine..
speaks such from a voice deeply embedded in each.
Blessings to you, Ram Dass.. dear friend.
Jodyr contributes:
I'd like to
share a Ram Dass story.
It's a simple one. I was at Timothy Leary's 75th birthday
party. Ram Dass was there too. He was dancing on a
temporary floor in the back yard. The dj was playing a
kind of atmospheric electronica. Ram Dass was
interpreting the motion of the music with such exquisite
precision that I had no doubt about his level of
understanding. It was that spontaneous, completely
natural, and dripping with gentle love.
He is very brave to share his difficulty with us. He
could just as easily have dropped out of sight. I guess
he wants to make sure people understand that they are not
their minds, as he is not his. The light of the Self
shines in *every* mind. Ram Dass is a blessing to us as
it still very clearly shines in him.
Jai Shakti Ma in the form of Ram Dass! Ki Jai!
March
22
Eckhart
Tolle at Inner Directions Gathering
by Christiana P. Duranczyk
One of the
primary draws for me to this conference was the chance to
again be with Eckhart Tolle. I spent an evening and some
private time with him last November, and experienced in
his presence a deep dropping into stillness. He embodies
and transmits the fullness of mind stopped.
We spoke briefly on Friday night and again I readily knew
the fullness of the present. There were several *alive*
presentations on Saturday. In my work, I meet many
authors. Occasionally, there is a disconnect between the
author's work and their presentation. I experienced none
of that this weekend. Rob Rabbin and Lama Surya Das were
delightfully authentic. Byron Katie gave a powerful
presentation of her "Work". Adyashanti offered
such a clear presentation that one felt his sharp sword
cut through the dross of illusion and moments of pure
essence emerged. Michael Green's reading of Rumi
accompanied by stirring music was a blessed ending to the
gathering.
Yet for me, and for the entire gathering, on Sunday,
Eckhart Tolle touched the deepest tonal note. He received
an immediate standing ovation. It is difficult to
articulate what is so powerful and unique about this man.
Much remains below linguistic sculpting. What I can say
is that his precise use of language to disassemble
structure is as phenomenal, as is his capacity to speak
from Presence.
After he spoke, I could not rejoin the assemblage. He had
taken me to a place where no further words were necessary
or desired. I thus missed the presentation by Rabbi Rami
Shapiro.
I went for a long walk along the beach and delighted in
the Sandpiper's play along the shoreline. They were my
next natural teacher as I observed them scurrying in and
out of the tides ebb and flow. I thought... how like we
humans.. dancing with Leela. Then suddenly a large wave
crashed and just as the water's edge was about to
overtake them, they immediately took flight on the
currents of the wind. A masterful display of natural
awareness segued powerfully with what I had just
witnessed with Eckhart.
March
23
Meeting
Eckhart Tolle
by Chuck Hillig
When I
first saw Eckhart Tolle on Friday and Saturday (March
17-18, 2000), I was struck both by his centeredness and
by his all-encompassing quietude. It almost seemed like
he was not fully "in the world" in the same
ways that others were likely to be. I was particularly
impressed by his talk on Sunday morning because he seemed
to be coming from a place deep within the Heart of
Presence. Although he spoke for an hour and forty five
minutes, he used no notes and never appeared to be
searching egoically for words or direction. His
presentation was seamless, clear and, at times, quite
humorous. The 500+ audience was moved enough to give him
a standing ovation at its conclusion.
When I saw him alone on Monday morning, my good friend
Dominica (who has photographed many of the well-known
advaitic teachers in the world today) asked me to
dialogue one-on-one with Eckhart as she took candid
photos of him. Up close, he was very quiet, totally
unassuming and almost painfully shy in his ordinary
interactions with both of us. There was almost a sense of
sadness or melancholy about him. Although he was
extremely polite and so very gentle, I sensed that his
energy level was quite low after the long weekend. In
fact, when we hugged goodbye, I actually felt his body
trembling like a young kitten away from its mother.
Because Eckhart's body is very slight and almost
underweight, I suspect that he probably has very limited
physical resources available. As it is with all of us,
Eckhart is being used by Consciousness, but this use
seems to be taking a physical toll on his
"vehicle." The continued success of his
marvelous book will only create more and more demands on
his time and energies, and I can only wish him well. I'm
sure that he's unconcerned about it. And, as it is with
all of us, his life is not his own either.
Bottom line: It is very easy to love this good and gentle
man, and if you ever have a chance to experience him
directly, please don't miss the opportunity.
~~~~~~~~~~
http://www.namastepublishing.com/
March
24
spreading
into my entire ---- really entire
by Alone
One day.............(now, I remember the exact day: it was Kartiki Paurnima -------- I will look to the English date also --------............. when there is a function also on Arunachal-mountain at Tiruvannamalai (though I am in Poona) --------- as this writing is close to the incident, so I remember the exact date.
I was rather awake on my bed (sofa-cum-bed)............ the time being 4 a.m. (when I afterwards looked in the watch)...........
When thus naturally I was awake............ [I was not aware at that moment, that it is Kartiki Paurnima]........... I felt .............some 'throbbing' was getting spread -- spreading -- (so to say), all around me -- into the whole world -- all around about me and it is spreading -- even in the whole universe --
............some [what word shall I use?] .............some throbbing -------- some 'heaving' -- like ............ all over outside [--------- this is not a visual sight I saw --------]
.............and, inside me, the same sort of thing, at my right side heart
[where previously I have "experiencing"]
.............. This time, it was on both regions (so to say) simultaneously
.............. throbbing inside me at that particular spot (..............now it is in my entire body) ............. already it is spreading into my entire ---- really entire -----body .......... and (the same feeling)
[as if the universe is also my body].............also into all round ------- into the entire ------- universe
(----------- how can I express this?--)
At the same time ---- I mean, simultaneously ------- this was 'going on'............
[Again also, excuse me for bringing-in the personal element ........... when I make fair the article ............ in-about mid-night ........... after some lapse of days perhaps, something of the same 'feeling' I am "experiencing" now, also]
Please .............. to continue the article ...............
This was (rather, is) not even 'simultaneously'.......... but, the whole is throbbing ............. my body is universe ..............
[Kindly, ................ bear interruption a little: "verbalization" and "experiencing" is going on side by side] ........... or, the universe is my body .......... ---------- I don't know what is what -------- ............ a certain cool vibrating -- throbbing -- no burden as such, no violent (so to say), feeling is it .............
a certain feeling of love (also) is in it ............ it may be L O V E.
March
25
The Self
Alone is the Reality
from Talks with Sri Ramana Maharshi (pp 15-16)
as seen on RamanaNisargadatta list
30th
January, 1935:
20. Mr. Evans-Wentz:
Is solitude necessary for a jnani?
Maharshi: Solitude is in the mind of man.
One might be in the thick of the world
and maintain serenity of mind;
such a one is in solitude.
Another may stay in a forest,
but still be unable to control his mind.
He cannot be said to be in solitude.
Solitude is a function of the mind.
A man attached to desire cannot get solitude
wherever he may be;
a detached man is always in solitude.
D: So then, one might be engaged in work and be free
from desire and keep up solitude. Is it so?
Maharshi: Yes.
Work performed with attachment is a shackle,
whereas work performed with detachment
does not affect the doer.
He is, even while working, in solitude.
D: They say that there are many saints in Tibet who
remain in solitude and are still helpful to the world.
How can it be?
Maharshi: It can be so.
Realisation of the Self is the greatest help
that can be rendered to humanity.
Therefore, the saints are said to be helpful,
though they remain in forests.
But it should not be forgotten that
solitude is not in forests only.
It can be had even in towns,
in the thick of worldly occupations.
D: Is it not necessary that the saints should mix
with people and be helpful to them?
Maharshi: The Self alone is the Reality;
the world and the rest of it are not.
The realised being does not see the world
as different from himself.
D: Thus then, the saint's realisation leads to the
uplift of humanity, without the latter being aware of
it. Is it so?
Maharshi: Yes.
The help is imperceptible but is still there.
A saint helps the whole of humanity,
unknown to the latter.
D: Would it not be better if he mixed with others?
Maharshi: There are no others to mix with.
The Self is the one and only reality.
D: If there be a hundred Self-realised men will it
not be to the greater benefit of the world?
Maharshi: When you say 'Self'
you refer to the unlimited,
but when you add 'men' to it,
you limit the meaning.
There is only one Infinite Self.
D: Yes, yes, I see! Sri Krishna has said in the Gita
that work must be performed without attachment and
such work is better than idleness. Is it Karma Yoga?
Maharshi: What is said is given out
to suit the temperaments of the hearers.
D: In Europe it is not understood by the people that
a man in solitude can be helpful. They imagine that
men working in the world alone can be useful. When
will this confusion cease? Will the European mind
continue wading in the morass or will it realise the
truth?
Maharshi: Never mind Europe or America.
Where are they except in your mind?
Realise your Self and then all is realised.
If you dream and see several men,
and then wake up and recall your dream,
do you try to ascertain if the persons
of your dream creation are also awake?
We have
forgotten how to wait; it is almost an abandoned space.
And it is our greatest treasure to be able to wait for
the right moment. The whole existence waits for the right
moment. Even trees know it--when it is time to bring the
flowers and when it is time to let go of all the leaves
and stand naked against the sky. They are still beautiful
in that nakedness, waiting for the new foliage with a
great trust that the old has gone, and the new will soon
be coming, and the new leaves will start growing. We have
forgotten to wait, we want everything in a hurry. It is a
great loss to humanity.... In silence and waiting
something inside you goes on growing--your authentic
being. And one day it jumps and becomes a flame, and your
whole personality is shattered; you are a new man. And
this new man knows what ceremony is, this new man knows
life's eternal juices.
Osho, Zen: The Diamond Thunderbolt Chapter 10
I've been
silently observing the antics on this list this past
week.. quite a show.. we've seen intelligent posts;
slanderous posts; courageous posts and fluid posts.
I am left with a question. What is the intention of this
list? My understanding was that this place was created as
a consequence of slander and rigid pompous thinking on
another list. My understanding was that this was a place
where people were free to share what arose to share.. be
it delusion or awareness and to have fellowship to learn
more about each through honest *dialogue*.
Jerry you say this list and 'reality' are not
'spiritual'.. how are you defining 'spiritual'? I do not
define this word as form or dogma or rules but as the
working of Consciousness as it plays out in human form.
Pierre Teilhard de Chardin:
"You are not a human being in search of a spiritual
experience. You are a spiritual being immersed in a human
experience."
I think I understand your intent to keep this a free
place. The creative imperative of Consciousness operates
both in impeccable order and in ambiguity and messiness.
It can not be contained by human thought structures. As
such I understand what Bruce says (below) about 'removing
the underpinings'. Yet I also hear Dan and Gene speak
eloquently about the need for awareness of timing and
language. Are we not collectively being asked to listen
and speak to what Gene calls 'the single conversation'?
Does not our collective freedom hinge on guiding
ourselves and each other into this 'voice' beyond the
personal?
I have extracted some writing from the past few days
which I feel offer important guidance not towards being
'bad' but towards becoming truly free as we collectively
see through the idea of self and grok 'Only Self'. If by
'bad' you refer to the radical upshift out of the
confines of the banal entity, leaving it to implode, then
I might understand your reference. This shift is a
movement of Love, which Marcia describes as a sword, and
I add it is a sword free of personal attacks.. it is a
sword of clear perception.
.o00o.
Gene: The hidden joke, is that the 'casual listener'
cannot hear this powerful language, and thus cannot hear
their own voice and how it participates in the single
conversation; the casual listener is conditioned to
listen only to predefined 'word-objects', and to ignore
the meanings stated by everything else. It is the
aggregate voice of everything, speaking all at once,
which is the vast song of harmony which sings 'us'. We
are in the literal womb of our creator, continually
nurtured, and given every opportunity to 'get with it',
and yet, the casual observer persists in missing this
thundering
***
The 'world-dream' has nothing to say about this 'one
thing'; those who derive identity from world-dream
identifications, cannot 'afford' to 'hear a single
thing', for at the moment the 'single thing' is actually
heard, the world-dream pops like a soap-bubble.
Dan: Understood from a position inside a boundary,
boundaries divide and lead to fear. Understood from no
located position, boundaries simultaneously divide and
unite, define and connect. Fear is the result of placing
oneself within a boundary. Love is the way boundary
functions when no entity is placed within a boundary.
This boundary defines me and you, unites me and you, and
shows that there in only love - neither me nor you. My
original skin: the meeting of time and eternity.
Gene: Boundaries themselves have this property; every
boundary indeed defines what is distinct, and by doing
so, opens the possibility of perceiving what is similar
or even identical.
This is a very subtle point to make; I am saying that
boundaries can be seen to exist as challenges to perceive
that what is apparently distinct, discrete, or separate,
are also similar or even identical.
** Language is a set of filters (properly called
grammars) which are used exclusively to create
distinction; it is difficult to use language in a way
that makes distinction work to illustrate similarity.
"Things are not as they seem; nor are they
different".
Discussions of similarity use distinction-creating words
to 'prove' similarity by a process of eliminating
difference, to the point of revealing similarity. In
reality, only words create this distinction, but few
speakers have mastered the art of using words in a manner
that does not inherently lead to separation. If we could
'learn to talk' in a manner that could transcend the
usual inherent effect of words, we could speak without
creating illusory boundaries between ourselves.
** Living in love, is so delicious, that one will not
threaten their own allowance to do so; that is why, the
patterns of speech of those who actually live in love,
succeed in persistently communicating the essence of
love, to those who read such words. The artist is making
a subtle plea to the reader, to give up the life of
separation in favor of the life of love, and to husband
this conversion, by disciplining the speech of self, to
remain within the constraints of liberation. The artist
is pleading with the reader, to learn to speak in a
similar manner, thus to reform the deepest inner thoughts
and assumptions. So reformed, language is naturally used
as a force to open, rather than close, the mind and heart
of those who are listening.
** In this freedom I form me /organise/organize, Does my
spell checker check spelling, Or does it check the spell
that is upon me? Innumerable bits, each one poised,
calling; "Choose me! Choose me!" Yet, I intend
to purport, to report, to retort, And yet, not unaware of
this vastness, Seek to arrange every bitte into forms
which please, Thus to garner the attention of one who is
imagined By me, To be like me; To form a union, discover
likeness, to verify myself, To offer a mirror, so to
speak, yet this mirror already has My own face in it; do
you look like me? Or if not, do you, At the least, see
like me?
If you see like me, I am joyed, but then, how boring; It
is in difference that mirrors truly shine, Otherwise, why
compare? Needless is comparison, yet it is pursued, as
though Something good will happen; Yet the stresses of
the search produce only a majority Of differences, the
sameness secretly known beforehand, And on the game goes,
life in movement, meanings pasted Upon void, imaginings
accused and praised, as though There might be one that is
real, one that is bedrock, Unmoving, a point of reference
by which our judgements Can be validated; each imagined
boulder, however, Becomes a particular particle of
speech, reduced To insignificance, upon the alter of
another's offering.
Dan: Hi Bruce. For me, it's not a matter of who's right,
but more a wish to look at "techniques" -- and
heavy confrontation seems to me to be a technique, unless
it flows naturally from a trusting and open communication
in which the confrontation will be heard as caring.
Industrial-strength, intense confrontation often triggers
defensive reactions, hurt, feelings of rejection. Unless
someone has a relationship of trust and knows
confrontation will be heard clearly, confrontation is
likely to lead to entrench continuing cycles of defense
and attack, rather than dispell illusions.
I'm not at all against powerful statements or
confrontation, by the way, but I do think timing and
connection of the parties involved is essential for such
communication to be fruitful.
Timing is very important in "teaching." Without
appropriate timing and clear communication, tendencies to
anchor in illusion are likely to be strengthened rather
than exposed or "vaporized".
Gene: How you characterize me, man; as though your words
are actually representative of 'how I actually am'. You
might mean to say, that 'I am that way, for you'.
** Ego can, however, be co-opted; it can be enlisted 'in
service of':
_ Inclusion/acceptance by a group (family or social)
_ Defense of any values implanted prior to age of arising
of speech (individually AND collectively)
_ Identity (personal and collective)
Ego which has been so 'co-opted' is indeed problematic,
but the problem is not with ego; it is instead, with
individual awareness, which uses _strategy_ to work for
(imagined) gain. I say again, that to denounce ego, is to
speak against oneself. To speak against oneself, is
suicidal; to speak against oneself, is to obliterate
immunity.
To speak against oneself, is also to imagine that the
speech of others, which may be directed against self, is
actually penetrating self. To assume that the various
insults, brickbats, etc, hurled by others, are literally
effective weapons, is also a tragic act of
self-weakening.
If the integrity of the cells of the digestive tract are
weakened or lost, large molecules of foodstuffs may enter
the circulatory system, producing allergic reaction, or
possibly fatal anaphylaxis.
Similarly, ego is designed to enable balance, especially
during stages of growth leading to maturity.
Thus, ego is not a problem for the immature, and for the
mature, it is 'just there'.
Gene: Interpenetration is possible, but ONLY when there
are discrete, IE separate 'entities' (bodies, minds,
cells) to enact this interpenetration. It takes an
"I" and a 'thou' to enact this sort of
intercourse.
Penetration implies boundary, does it not? Mutually
allowed interpenetration can be the first step toward
realization of an actual 'boundaryless' awareness. But
this does not do away with the need for integrity of all
boundaries of cell, membrane, or ego. Indeed, it is this
very needed integrity, which allows the possibility of
realizing 'unbounded awareness'.
Neo: Wouldn't it be nice if everyone could support each
other and get along?
Bruce: Emphatically not at the expense of honesty.
N: Is unity not the goal?
B: No, seeing *what is* is the goal, and that never
happens until at all until the nature of goal-seeking is
fully understood.
Neo: There must be a lot of fear here on this list.
Bruce: That much is true. The list is the world.
** Then you realize there's nobody from whom to beg
forgiveness -- there's just you and the mirror showing
you your pretense, your elaborate self-image.
** The whole image of "working out their
differences" is illusory -- look at the world, where
when folks are "working out their differences"
they are actually angling for an edge, trying arrive at
something that looks fair but actually confers some sort
of advantage. Negotiation is war in which both sides have
forego gross physical means of murder and instead try to
kill each other with faux kindness and Machavellian
politesse. Nondual realization obviates all such
conflict, overt or otherwise, by removing the
underpinnings in one "swell foop." :-)
** Imposed unity -- whether by gross physical force or
social/psychological coercion such as peer pressure -- is
also conflict. The absence of the trappings of war is not
peace.
Dan: Yes - and "****** !!!! :-)" suggests that
it is urgent to realize this "no choice"
situation. Suggests there are many ways to delay, avoid,
postpone, and to keep the cycles of avoidance going
around. We have an innate ability to entrance ourselves
with our words and concepts, mesmerizing ourselves in the
secure warmth of self-perpetuated belief. "We"
remain at our imagined center, and only "no
choice" will remove what has never been there.
March
28
EST and the
Forum
by Simon Crosby
Summary:
This page has been written as background for people
considering taking the Forum training offered by Landmark
Education. The author is an independent psychologist and
graduate of the Est training, the Forum's predecessor.
The Forum is a large group awareness training developed
out of its forerunner The Erhard Seminars Training [known
as Est]. The creator of Est, Werner Erhard, studied many
personal development traditions ranging from Buddhism to
Scientology. He realised he could combine insights from
several sources to develop a training, to be held under
rigourous conditions and designed to induce in
participants shifts towards fresh realisations about the
way their life has functioned, and realisations about
what it is possible for them to be. Such shifts are not
readily obtainable in ordinary life because most people
are too cocooned by self-comforting habits and ways of
being; habits of avoidance, denial, defensiveness, and so
on.
The 60-hour training was designed to be so compelling
that it would need no marketing, apart from the
enthusiasm of graduates - who would ensure a steady flow
of clients. And so it has been. The Est training, which
the writer experienced in the early 80s, was replaced by
the Forum as a shorter and less rigourous version of Est
[which had been criticised for being too tough]. The
Forum, misleadingly called a seminar, is run worldwide by
the Landmark Education Corporation of San Fransisco,
headed by Werner Erhard's brother.
The basic ideas behind the Forum probably would be
discoverable by a combination of introspection and
careful reading. But the difference that really makes a
difference - and this is what you get if you buy yourself
a place in the Forum - is the powerful setting in which
the training is delivered, and that will include having a
trainer [referred to as the leader] of considerable
ability and expertise. It is an exceptional experience to
be part of what happens in a large group of any kind -
but especially one like the Forum in which the
participants share a common intent and goal. The various
rules and boundaries that the Forum organisers set up and
insist upon [how my fellow Est participants and I coped
with those were deeply illuminating to witness] make for
a uniquely super-charged atmosphere. Then there are the
Forum's fundamental processes around which the training
revolves, processes which have been carefully honed over
the years, and still are being.
Most large group awareness trainings are psychological in
character. But they are very far from the psychology and
style of founding fathers such as Freud and Jung. The
Forum is an extreme example of Constructivist Psychology
in action. But it is not the polite Personal Construct
Theory of George Kelly [the founder of constructivist
psychology].
As a constructivist myself I appreciate the
constructivism in the Forum and I also like that it seeks
to have people disidentify from their problems. I see
dis-identification as a key task in psychology and as the
master life-skill. The Forum is not psychotherapy, but it
is something which may well be used by psychotherapy
clients who could do with a more of a nudge than a
psychotherapist would consider it appropriate to deliver.
Various books have been written about the experience of
Est and several accounts of the Forum can be found. I
would advise against reading any of these because they
might reduce the impact of what you may gain as insights
- and that would be to lose quite a bit of the point of
the Forum.
Some people say that the training begins with one's first
exposure to Landmark Education staff. Anglo-Saxons are
unlikely to appreciate the strongly up-beat and pushy
style of some of the Landmark sales team. Waverers can be
given so persuasive a hard sell as to wipe out any chance
of a sign-up. That is partly why Landmark Education has
been described as an "intense enrolling
environment" [see Safeguards when Dealing with
Landmark]. It is worth not being put off by any
pushiness: try seeing that as no more than something
skilfully to be sidestepped without being shunted into
irritation, or worse.
SAFEGUARDS AND RESERVATIONS
I am positive about the Forum, but reservedly so, because
I do not know how efficient the screening process is that
is meant to let in only the psychologically well. The
Forum is powerful and it should not be taken by anyone
whose mental health is anything but firmly balanced and
well-established, nor by anyone who is not good at
looking after themselves or managing strong peer
pressure. If you have any doubt about its suitability for
you then you should consult a mental health professional.
If you are in psychotherapy, and your therapist approves
of you doing the Forum, then you are unlikely to be
unbalanced by the powerful techniques that the Forum uses
- some participants would say that losing balance was
exactly what they needed. Some maybe, but for the rest
there are some issues, covered below, it would be
sensible to think over.
If you take the Forum then some degree of ego-inflation
is almost certain. For most non-narcissistic people this
will be a short-lived matter, and it will be no problem
if you have generous and understanding associates.
After the Forum your friends may experience you as
obnoxiously accurate when you tell them how bits of their
lives do not work properly, and as you spell out what
they should do about it. Forum people tend to call this
coaching.
If you feel that situations or people are limiting you,
then after the Forum you may feel it would be simplest to
discard them. I am sure the Forum does not intend such an
escapist result.
Do not be mesmerised by the cost of the Forum - what are
you worth? Concerning the richness of the organisation -
that does not have to be relevant, unless you say so.
One of the main philosophic differences between
psychotherapy and the Forum is that the meanings people
give to things are dismissed by Forum people. That is
more useful than you might think but your non-Forum
associates may not enjoy having their meanings dismissed
by you - if you do.
The Forum creates an in-group atmosphere partly by using
certain jargony words [which they call a new use of
language] to refer to its foundation principles. Thomas
Leonard says of jargon that too often people seem to
"become" these principles rather than simply
applying and enjoying them. Your associates are unlikely
to enjoy having their ears bent with Forum-speak - unless
they find it funny. It does sound bizarre out of context.
The Forum is the opening offer of Landmark Education. You
will be expected to take other more expensive programmes,
and you will be pressured to sign up before you leave.
There are many rigidities connected with the Forum, and
Forum leaders are powerful authority figures. If you are
likely to have problems with that then it would be
sensible to suspend any dislike for the time being.
If you take the Forum you will hear many stories of
seemingly intractable problems being resolved within
hours of the end of the training.
Be sure to click on Simon's name above, for more! Included in this article are several significant links to Landmark as well as to other pages on Simon's website. --Jerry
March
29
Meet John
Gaeta, Visual Effects Supervisor for 'The Matrix'
John Gaeta won the Oscar for visual effects. The following is taken from a chat session with John Gaeta. I've deleted the portions with the other guests. If you want to read the entire chat session, go to http://www.whatisthematrix.com
Even if
you've seen the Matrix three times, you'll want to see it
again after reading the chat transcripts, or even after
reading what follows.
guest-Jaisin says: What was the inspiration behind the
Matrix "code"?
John: It's the fabric of life.
guest-shokker says: what is your favorite scene?
John: My actual favorite scene is the one in which
Morpheus and Neo and Trinity and the group go into the
Matrix and this is the scene at which point Neo
understands what he is going into and there is a very
simple shot of them exiting an apartment building in slow
motion that despite the fact that it is a very simple
camera trick, it is incredibly powerful and is so well
set up, that you really believe you have entered an
altered state of reality.
guest-BatNeal says: What advice would you give to anyone
interested in a special effects carreer?
John: Work for free--anything to get your foot in the
door.
It's such a strange field. People come in from all
different types of places and their path of entry is
always unique. There is no one way unless, of course, you
have computer skills, especially in graphics.
guest-wry says: John--every time I come down my steps I
think of that slow-mo scence. It was great! Thanks.
John: Me too. My life works in slow motion.
guest-uga says: how hard was it to do the bullet time
effects?
John: Any time you are asked to do something that has
never been done before, it is as hard from an emotional
and self-confident point of view as it is from a
technical point of view.
guest-jonandben says: How did you guys get started in
special effects?
How would you recommend I get in?
John: Work for nothing--that's how I did it.
guest-NEO says: Is editing the hardest job to do?
John: I would say marketing.
guest-Batbat224 says: Are you going to be making any
other movies in the style of the Matrix in the future?
John: I think Matrix is a very contemporary type of movie
and it's arrival comes with the arrival of a few other
equally contemporary and free type of movie experiences
and I think there will be many movies that appear as a
gimmick or a copy of the Matrix but then again there will
be many many more movies that are authentically becoming
part of modern cinema.
guest-ZEUS says: I was wondering if you will do the
Visual Effets on Matrix 2 and 3? if so can you tell us
what will be in it?
John: I actually love the spoon scene because it is a
simple application of visual effects towards a story
concept and it serves the story as opposed to being just
an eye catching scene.
John: Absolutely I will do the Visual Effects on the
Matrix trilogy and No, I can't tell you what will be in
it.
guest-ScubaMDW says: What was the most expensive special
effect in the movie?
John: Probably the shot with the babies in the field of
pods.
...
John: I was just in Poland in Warsaw a month ago and
attended a Matrix DVD lodge party that was much cooler
than any of the LA parties and hats off to the undergound
kids on that side of the world. They know exactly what
the vibe is.
John: Without giving anything away, I believe that visual
effects will slowly become more and more used to
visualize a character's perception of the world and
applied in more subtle and subliminal ways as opposed to
purely eye-catching and I intend to pursue all manner of
perceptual trickery.
...
guest-DHoberer says: I loved the scene at the end where
Neo flies into the Agent and the Agent explodes. How'd
you do that?
John: Basically by rebuilding the Agent as a 3D form and
mapping the image of his performance upon that form and
then using some particle system dynamics simulation, we
create the breakage of that image and that 3D form.
guest-mlscs says: The biggest question I've always had,
and I don't know if you guys can answer it or not, is why
does Neo fly at the end of the movie?
John: Because he is self-actualized.
March
30
Matrix
Within Matrix Within Matrix
by Gene Poole with Neo and Jerry
NEO:
Speaking of The Matrix, there is one line that has always
puzzled me. Help anyone? In the subway Trinity says
"Everything that the Oracle told me has come true
except this."
This was not followed up on. I can think of several
explanations but none really fit.
JERRY: Maybe there's no direct answer. Maybe the idea is
to not look so hard or take things so literally. Maybe
the Oracle is a Matrix within a Matrix. Maybe the reality
that tells us what the Matrix is, is itself a Matrix. Is
there really any Maybe about it? Isn't it what neti-neti
is all about?
GENE: " A discontinuity is perceived, where none was
expected".
It strikes me that this sounds a lot like the I Ching.
Maybe MARCIA can give us the text of the hexagram which
most sounds like this?
Similar concepts: The 'Interval', the 'crack in the
cosmic egg', 'Purgatorio', 'ambivalence'.
Remember... that while in the MATRIX, 'deja vu' is
indicative of 'something about to happen'. Neo saw the
black cat twice in quick succession, and was about to
dismiss it as 'a trick of his mind', but it turned out to
be a very special 'interMATRIX symptom' of events about
to transpire.
Similarly, in 'real life' situations, surprising turns of
events occur, unpredicted and unexpected. Possibly the
most recent major event of this sort, was the unexpected
BLESSING of the 'Y2K' worldwide party. Many, many people,
hunkering in their bunkers, were completely blown away by
the powerful demonstrations of love, caring, and joy that
showed up to take the place of the predicted breakdown of
global networks and commerce. Rather than fulfill the
nightmares of the paranoid, 'Y2K' was a rosy dawn of new
faith in our ability to 'get along' with each other.
Humanity slides into a default-position of 'resigned and
cynical'; that is the 'norm', and is where so many people
live and come from, all expectations funneled into 'more
of the same'.
Trinity's comment reveals that she was experiencing the
premonitory tickle of unexpected turns of events; her
'expectations' of perpetual slavery to the machine of the
MATRIX were being challenged.
There is 'great safety' in the space of 'resigned and
cynical'. By adhering to this 'party line of the
world-dream', you will be safely shielded from the
attacks of the majority, cynics every one. By adopting
this 'protective coloration', this camouflage of the
mass-mind, you are not singled out for punishment for
being 'different'. And this disguise is very troublesome,
for like any mantra, if you say it to yourself often
enough, it becomes true. The 'disguise' becomes a
veritable skin, a protective boundary, which itself then
shapes the world around you. In this way, 'resigned and
cynical' rules the world of every person who subscribes
to it.
JERRY: Perhaps the kicker in Matrix 2 will be that what
we thought was reality is also Matrix. That'll be
revealed in the end and will lead to nicely to the Matrix
3, which will be the best of the three. Perhaps the line
Trinity utters is the doorway, the flaw through which one
enters deeper reality.
GENE: MATRIX within MATRIX within MATRIX... do we
someday, get to experience the 'true source'?
Or could it be... that the 'way that it is' is actually,
exactly just how the 'true source' behaves?
Could it be... that by practiced abiding, that every
MATRIX which comprises the matrices of all matrices, will
orthogonally rotate into alignment, providing
simultaneous knowing experience of everything, all at
once? And if that were to occur for you... could your
'conventional mind' take it? I think not.
The 'dilemma of the seeker' is just this, the disguise
donned to prevent the shattering of the conventional
mind.
"Understanding is not understanding"
The disguise of 'resigned and cynical' provides the
safety of world-dream validation, but itself creates a
hell with a population of one.
If one removes the asbestos suit needed to live in hell,
one is immediately cremated, but this is a rare event.
Avoiding is not only a waste of a perfectly fine
hellfire, but also for fear of making an ash of oneself.
March
31
Cafe
Writings
by David
Hodges
I first got
started writing in cafe's inspired by Natalie Goldberg's
"Writing Down the Bones", a wonderful book
about writing and Zen, as is her other book, "Long
Quiet Highway", about Zen and writing.
My favorite cafe for writing in is Muddy Waters, in
Burlington, Vermont- great atmosphere, friendly people,
lots of other people writing. My second favorite is Cafe
Trieste in North Beach of San Francicsco, a place where
you can almost feel the shadow of Jack Kerouac passing
by. (Not that I get to either of these places very
often!)
But most of the time I visit my four favorites, two in
Madison, Connecticut, and two in New Haven. Each one has
its own personality. For example, at Willoughby's in New
Haven, some ALWAYS spills something each time I am there.
The first time I was there, a Snapple hit the ground.
Other times, coffee. Last time, a guy came in for an iced
mocha to go and he lost it right in the doorway. It
seemed to leave his hands on its own volition, leap in
the air, flip over, and splash on the floor. The woman
behind the counter said cheerfully, "Oh, that's
okay. We do have a policy though: the customer cleans it
up!" You could probably make something cosmic or
karmic out of that statement.
I find it easier to concentrate in an atmosphere of
moderate activity than in total silence and solitude. I
don't know why this is. My writing consists of this
discipline (from Natalie Goldberg): "Keep Your Hand
Moving". You keep writing, following your thoughts.
This requires a meditator's witness attitude towards
thought in order to avoid censoring or interfering with
the thought stream. And it induces the witness attitude
towards your thoughts and a resulting deepening of
consciousness.
On Sunday mornings I like to stop by a sidewalk cafe in
Madison to view the weekly passage of a group of bikers
who stop for their capucchino's, chai's, and lattes
before roaring off again. I imagine that in weekly life
these middle-aged people are investment bankers and stock
brokers from Greenwich or Darien, because there has never
been a better dressed, better outfitted bunch than these.
Their bikes are all late model, shiny Harley's with all
the accessories. Their clothes are the finest biker gear,
including lots of black leather uncontaminated by the
slightest hint of grease or dirt. The women wear these
black leather chaps over their tight jeans, and carefully
knotted bandanas around their necks. They are well made
up and occasionally speak to mysterious others on their
cell phones
while waiting for the guys. Then the group mounts up and
takes off down the road again.
Let's see. Got nothing to do tonight, got no one to be
with. So I went to the video store and didn't find any
video I wanted to see tonight. So I went to the cafe and
wrote in my journal and drank a latte. Then I figured I'd
go to the LARGE video store. Then I thought, nah. Then I
came home. Then I meditated. Then I noticed that SHE had
been trying to get my attention all along. SHE was
physically located in my chest. In consciousness she was
just - inside. When my attention would wander she would
pull me back. My impulse was to praise her or worship her
but she wanted me to be quiet. Then my impulse was to
figure her out, relate her to theories and ideas and
myths but she wanted me to be quiet. SO - I just stayed
there with HER for a while. I continued to do nothing.
But I wasn't alone.
Now I'm writing this to you folks.
Now I'm not.
April
1
Untitled
by
Bernadette Roberts
There is a
silence within,
a silence that descends from without;
a silence that stills existence
and a silence that engulfs the entire universe.
There is a silence of the self
and its faculties of will, thought, memory, and emotions.
There is a silence in which there is nothing,
a silence in which there is something;
and finally, there is the silence of no-self
and the silence of God.
April
2
On The Pile
With Kevin Costner and A Couple of Other Guys
by O.H.
Hello
dears:
Been away fixing up pile for awhile. Anything interestin'
happen while i was gone? ,^))
Someone quoted Rumi, "Out beyond right and wrong,
there is a field, I will meet you there." (or
somethin' like that). Wanted to say, i been to that field
once, met Kevin Costner there, tossed a few
balls......dreamin' again, old women do that a lot.
Cleaning up papers, found this poem darlin' xan sent
once. Thought maybe worth a repeat.
Free and Easy:
A spontaneous song of indestructible wisdom by Gen'dün
Rinpoche
Happiness is not to be found through great effort and
willpower.
It is already present in open relaxation and letting go.
Don't strain.
There's nothing to do or to undo.
Whatever momentarily and adventitiously arises in
body-mind has no real import at all - has very little
reality at all.
Why identify with it and become attached to it, passing
judgement on it and on yourself and others?
Far better simply to just let the entire game happen on
its own, springing up and falling back again like waves,
without 'rectifying' or manipulating things, just
noticing how everything vanishes and then magically
reappears, again and again and again time without end.
It's only our searching for happiness that prevents us
from seeing it, like a vivid rainbow one runs after but
can never catch or a dog chasing its own tail.
Though peace and happiness have no existence as some
actual place or thing they are forever at hand - one's
constant companion at every instant.
Just don't be taken in by the apparent reality of good
and bad experiences.
They're like today's passing weather like rainbows in the
sky.
Wanting to grasp the ungraspable, you exhaust yourself in
vain, but as soon as you open up and relax the tight fist
of grasping, infinite space is right there - open,
inviting, comfortable.
Use this spaciousness - this freedom and natural ease.
Don't look anywhere else.
Don't go off into the tangled jungle searching for the
elephant of great awakenedness when he is already at
home, quietly resting in front of your own hearth.
There's nothing to do or to undo nothing to force nothing
you have to want nothing missing.
Emaho - how marvellous!!
Everything just happens of itself!!"
~~Emaho! That's what Kev said as old bones leaped in air
and caught high pop-up with one glove inbetween rickety
legs! He was always joshin' me cause i took the game so
seriously, i wanted to "wine!"
hoho..."win!" but he would jes laugh at my
shenanigans, and pretty soon i'd forget and laugh too,
especially when the wolves came and we started all that
prancin' around. Emaho indeed!....but you ain't
interested in an old woman's dreams, now anyway. ,^))
i am touched often by the utter preciousness of all of
you,
love, oh
THE THREE ANSWERS:
Go Anywhere.
Do Nothing.
Love Everybody.
"In
doing good, avoid fame. In doing evil, avoid punishment.
Thus, by pursuing the middle way, you may preserve your
body, fulfill your life, look after your parents, and
live out your years."
~~Ugh! Sounds really borrrring! This may be this guy's
middle way but it sure doesn't sound like the Big Guy's
Middle Way.
"In doing good, avoid fame." So you do good,
fame comes. So? We just accept whatever, eh? I'm out
there on the stage, playing my role to beat all heck, got
that picture on the wall just right..,^)), and the
audience stands and shouts bravo! So? maybe next night
they boo...So?
In doing evil, avoid punishment. Wooeee...what's all this
"avoiding" stuff? Not "The" Middle
Way. The Big Golden Dear was visiting pile just last week
(hey, i can talk to dead gurus, too, ya know!) and
reminded its three things ketchin' us: the avoiding, the
grabbing, and the staying neutral - they're the ones that
keep us paddlin' on samsara's sea.
It's the acceptance of everything, just as it is, that
shoots us plop! right over to the other shore! or at
least a comfy sandbar. Letting go of grasping - hey, give
me that Oscar! ok, Kristie dear, oh was up there once,
too! before the talkies! ,^)) letting go of avoidance -
hey, if I don't read Elbowfable's post, i might feel
better - letting go of the whole show, even being
neutral, the whole shebang of any movement towards or
away...any fabication....of the mind and it's just like a
beautiful eagle swoops down, picks you up by the scuff of
yer neck - hey! i always wondered what a scuff was,
anybody know? and flies you to the other shore and lets
you go! kerplop! there you are!
lalala...when you wish upon a star...lalala
What did that Rinpoche say? "Far better simply to
just let the entire game happen on its own springing up
and falling back again like waves Without 'rectifying' or
manipulating things just noticing how everything vanishes
and then magically reappears, again and again and again
time without end."
Quote says, "preserve your body" well, this
body looks like it's been preserved - that's for sure,
"fulfill your life" - all goals, all dreams,
all ideas that there is a life to fulfill down the shoot
too! "look after your parents," hoho..big bow
to gentleman from China, for him this important! nothing
to look after afraid, nothing at all. "and live out
your years." egad...who would want to die out their
years...no meaning that i can see...living to be an
ancient one is not all its cracked up to be. ,^)) And i
hate purple!!! hoho
Remember the story about the monk who said Ah, so? He
lived by himself in a small temple just outside of town,
and one day some parents of a young girl come to see him,
all irate and everything. They say their daughter is
pregnant and she has said the monk is the father. Monk
says, Ah, so. Then girl has baby, her parents come to
monk with baby, say, here, you raise it! Monk says, Ah,
so. Takes baby, has women who comes in to clean and cook
help him raise baby. Three years later, parents come
again, Oh, we very sorry, dear monk, daughter has
confessed that you are not the father. It's the
blacksmith's son, Brucesan...,^)).
Monk says, Ah,so. Parents say, So now we take baby. Monk
hands over baby and says....Oh, but I raised the little
tyke and he is like my own son, and....oh, ok, he says,
Ah, so.
Well, to tell you the truth, that little story guided me
for years. It was my dream to one day be able to look at
everything that "happened" and react
spontaneously with an ah, so. Only when the blessing of
realizing that this "everything" was coming
from oh's own feeble mind!!!! no where else!!! was i able
to even begin to let go. To see, as dearest xan has been
saying so brilliantly, "If you are not constantly
living as silent beingness/ love, and if that is what you
want, it becomes your task to ruthlessly look at whatever
appears in your personal self that is anything
else."...why am i even bothering with this dribble
when she has said it all?
and so old bones continues to dribble, comes with the
cane and bib...,^))
...to see that there twern't anything to do except look
at that mind, and lo and behold! it was avoiding and
grasping or trying to stay neutral, Shining that ole
flashlight of awareness on just that and everything just
dropped away.....just dropped away...Amazing Grace!...and
i lost sometimes....and i found sometimes...but nothing
"mattered" anymore...the whole world had become
one big ah, so.
Sometimes the simplest solution is "doing"
nothing, and letting Him have Her Way with ya..
The middle way is looking straight ahead and accepting
whatever appears on the road, even the
"unacceptable," especially the unacceptable,
accept it all...well, i am repeatin' myself...(mercifully
not goin' to turn that into a senior joke! hoho)..and
goin' on a bit,..sorry. You all know all this already, i
know.
take care dears.
i am sure enjoying all the swirling of joy and wisdom
abounding on list today - like everyone found the key to
their handcuffs all at once A ball of brilliance - that's
for sure!
love, oh _______________________________________
THE THREE
ANSWERS:
Go Anywhere.
Do Nothing.
Love Everybody.
April
4
The Nisargadatta
Song of I Am
being excerpts from
I Am That
edited by Jerry Katz
Go deep into the sense of 'I am' and you will find.
...focus your mind on 'I am', which is pure and simple being.
Take the first step first. All blessings come from within. Turn within. 'I am' you know. Be with it all the time you can spare, until you revert to it spontaneously. There is no simpler and easier way.
Before all beginnings, after all ending -- I am. All has its being in me, in the 'I am', that shines in every living being.
On a deeper level my experience is your experience. Dive deep within yourself and you will find it easily and simply. Go in the direction of 'I am'.
Part Two
When I met my Guru, he told me: "You are not what you take yourself to be. Find out what you are. Watch the sense 'I am', find your real Self." I obeyed him, because I trusted him. I did as he told me. All my spare time I would spend looking at myself in silence. And what a difference it made, and how soon!
My teacher told me to hold on to the sense 'I am' tenaciously and not to swerve from it even for a moment. I did my best to follow his advice and in a comparatively short time I realized within myself the truth of his teaching. All I did was to remember his teaching, his face, his words constantly. This brought an end to the mind; in the stillness of the mind I saw myself as I am -- unbound.
I simply followed (my teacher's) instruction which was to focus the mind on pure being 'I am', and stay in it. I used to sit for hours together, with nothing but the 'I am' in my mind and soon peace and joy and a deep all-embracing love became my normal state. In it all disappeared -- myself, my Guru, the life I lived, the world around me. Only peace remained and unfathomable silence.
My Guru ordered me to attend to the sense 'I am' and to give attention to nothing else. I just obeyed. I did not follow any particular course of breathing, or meditation, or study of scriptures. Whatever happened, I would turn away my attention from it and remain with the sense 'I am', it may look too simple, even crude. My only reason for doing it was that my Guru told me so. Yet it worked! Obedience is a powerful solvent of all desires and fears.
There is no sense of purpose in my doing anything. Things happen as they happen -- not because I make them happen, but it is because I am that they happen. In reality nothing ever happens. When the mind is restless, it makes Shiva dance, like the restless waters of the lake make the moon dance. It is all appearance, due to wrong ideas.
...in whatever role I may appear and whatever function I may perform -- I remain what I am: the 'I am' immovable, unshakable, independent.
When I say 'I am', I do not mean a separate entity with a body as its nucleus. I mean the totality of being, the ocean of consciousness, the entire universe of all that is and knows. I have nothing to desire for I am complete forever.
Words betray their hollowness. The real cannot be described, it must be experienced. I cannot find better words for what I know. What I say may sound ridiculous. But what the words try to convey is the highest truth. All is one, however much we quibble. And all is done to please the one source and goal of every desire, whom we all know as the 'I am'.
Just like the sun is reflected in a billion dew drops, so is the timeless endlessly repeated. When I repeat: 'I am, I am', I merely assert and re-assert an ever-present fact. You get tired of my words because you do not see the living truth behind them. Contact it and you will find the full meaning of words and of silence -- both.
...I trusted my Guru. What he told me to do, I did. He told me to concentrate on 'I am' -- I did. He told me that I am beyond all perceivables and conceivables -- I believed. ... You may choose any way that suits you; your earnestness will determine the rate of progress.
for the rest of this work, click here
April
5
Self-Knowledge - a
short essay
by Tim Gerchmez
Self-knowledge
does not consist of knowing what you are. What you are,
you are already. Rather, it consists of *knowing what you
are not*. Eliminating self-delusion clears the way for
*what you are* to manifest.
In other words, if you know what you are not, you are
free to *be what you are*. There is no way to state what
you are in positive terms, except perhaps as simple
Being: "I Am." The fact that you *are* is
obvious. What you are cannot be known - you can only *be
it*. And until all mental confusion is undone, until you
know what you are not, you cannot really be what you are
(please excuse the implied paradox). You are caught in a
mental trap, a trap of delusive ideas about yourself.
There can be no quality of genuineness in life until you
know all that you are not. This process of elimination,
often termed "discrimination" or
"self-enquiry" (sanskrit: viveka) clears the
way for vidya (often translated as "knowledge,"
but not really translatable into English) to manifest. It
is the spiritual practice recommended by both Ramana
Maharshi and Nisargadatta Maharaj, in the form of the
question "Who am I?" RM states that it is best
to put the question only once, and then begin to enquire.
NM states that to turn the focus of attention to the
"I AM," the pure and simple state of being, is
also a method of enquiry. The discovery is that the
question "Who am I?" has no answer except in
the negative. One can *know* only what one is not... and
this knowledge is imperative. What one knows, one is free
of. When you know what you are not, you are free of what
you are not... and what remains is simply what you are.
At the same time, to constantly dwell on the temporality
and impermanence of all perceivables and conceivables is
vairagya (dispassion). Viveka and vairagya go
hand-in-hand. When the body, the mind and the world are
known deeply to be temporal, impermanent, momentary and
dreamlike, there is no longer any need to either do or
not do anything. In other words, there is (at first)
freedom from the compulsion to satisfy desires, and
finally freedom from desire itself. The deeper the
realization of impermanence goes, the more it can be seen
that there is nothing to build, nothing to do, nowhere to
go. Nothing lasts. The death of the body/mind is an
absolute guarantee. Without viveka, this could result in
a nihilistic viewpoint, but when combined with viveka, it
can easily result in what is often called
self-realization or enlightenment (a couple of really
lousy terms that mean something different to everyone).
To conclude, there is really nothing that can be known
about oneself. The reality of what we are is mystery
beyond mystery to the mind. The mind can only
progressively eliminate confusion and incorrect views,
until it becomes utterly still in complete bafflement,
and the mind is at last transcended.
What is it that transcends the mind? How could the mind
possibly know?
April
6
Considering
Papaji and Enlighenment on Nonduality
NEO
According to Gangaji, her teacher Papaji traveled all
over India to find an Enlightened teacher. He found many
that said they were and who turned out not to be. His
search stopped when he found Ramana. A number of years
ago I started a similar search in N. America. Although I
met a number of wise teachers, none appeared, to me, to
be enlightened. So when a member here said they were, I
needed to check it out.
***
Don't let anyone fool you, there are not any enlightened
ones here.
***
Again, there are not any here. From my observations it is
a very hard road to travel but the rewards are beyond
imagination.
JAN BARENDRECHT
ROTFL... Prove you are familiar with those rewards -
otherwise you are but fantasizing or parroting :)
GREG GOODE, Ph.D.
Is part of your definition of "enlightened one"
that such a one "does not subscribe to Internet
lists"?
ROGER ISAACS
Neo attacks authority. Yet, the result of this attack
ultimately promotes Neo as the authority.
A brilliant red sign flashes and a deafening electronic
buzzer blares:
!!!CONTRADICTION!!!
How do you know, Neo, that there are no enlightened ones
here? All of us should accept you as an authority on this
question? Please supply the grand evidence supporting
your conclusion, something more substantial than egoic
delusion, please.
You are very entertaining, Neo. You chase you own tail
and invite us to join in your egoic celebration of self.
NORA
who knows whether anybody on this list is enlightened?
who the hell cares? why are we spinning our wheels about
it?
as for so called "enlightened ones" only zen
roshis and gurus and people like that there are allowed
to slap people around--and only their followers who
signed on board..... and i personally doubt their
enlightenment too..
XAN, WITH NEO AND MELODY
NEO: According to Gangaji, her teacher Papaji traveled
all over India to find an Enlightened teacher. He found
many that said they were and who turned out not to be.
His search stopped when he found Ramana.
MELODY: Did Papaji happen to say why he searched for an
enlightened teacher?
Does he attribute his own enlightenment to having found
an enlightened teacher?
I have heard it stated here many times that only an
enlightened being can recognize another. This seems to me
to be nonsense, although I find the term 'enlightened
being' a rather silly one.
I know Stillness and Presence when it touches 'me'.
I wonder if this is what Papaji meant, as well?
XAN: Melody, I'm glad you asked. These are excerpts from
Papaji's biography, written before his death, with his
supervision, and called, Nothing Ever Happened:
When Papaji was
6 years old he had a spontaneous event of samadhi which
lasted for 2 days, in which he was "consumed and
engulfed by an experience that made me so peaceful and
happy." and "was so overwhelming, it had
effectively paralyzed my ability to respond to any
external stimuli."
Years passed, he attended school and served in the Indian
army but, "I wanted God, and I wanted Him more than
anything else in the world. I also wanted to find a real
Guru who could help me in my search." Throughout his
20's he visited most of the saints and swamis he heard
about in India, asking each of them ,"Have you seen
God? and if you have, can you show me God?"
Each of these would laugh at him or tell him to stay with
them or do some practice. "They would say, 'You
can't see God without meditating on Him for some time.' I
wasn't satisfied with this answer. I thought 'God is like
the sun. I don't need practice to see Him. I just need
someone who can point my head in the right direction, or
someone who can remove the cateract from my eyes so that
He becomes immediately becomes apparent to me. My God is
all love, all grace, all majesty. Why should He hide
Himself from me?'"
There is an unusual story of how he came learn of Ramana
and to meet him in l944, which is too long to be told
here. At first meeting he asked his two questions - Have
you seen God? and Can you show me God? "Ramana
answered, 'No, I cannot show you God because God is not
an object to be seen. God is the subject. He is the seer.
Don't concern yourself with objects that can be seen.
Find out who the seer is.' He also added, 'You alone are
God.'"
Papaji described himself as hard headed and he did not
like this answer, but as Ramana gazed at him he had an
exerience of` shakti energy and "...became aware of
the spiritual Heart, the source and support of all that
exists. Within the Heart I saw or felt something like a
closed bud. With the Maharashi looking at me, and with
myself in a state of inner silence ... the Heart opened
and bloomed."
Still with a critical and mistrusting mind, Papaji
continued the intense spiritual practices he had been
doing. He returned to Ramana a few times in the next
months to ask specific questions about his spiritual
progress.
On one of these occasions, "Then he looked at me
intently. I could feel that my whole body and mind and
being washed with waves of purity. They were being washed
by his silent gaze. I could feel him looking into my
Heart. ... A process of transformation was going on ...
Then, suddenly, I understood. I knew that this man who
had spoken to me was, in reality, what I already was,
what I had always been. There was a sudden impact of
recognition as I became aware of the Self. ... I knew,
unerringly, that this was the same state of peace and
happiness that I had been emersed in as a six-year-old
boy ... I knew that my spiritual quest had definitely
ended, but the source of that knowledge will always
remain indescribable."
After
hearing (sravana) the Truth that the
"I"-conceit (i.e., that the "I" is
the basis of an identity to thought images and
impressions) is based on the primordial evil Ignorance
and that this Ignorance is due solely to the non-enquiry
into the nature and source of the "I" sense,
there begins to dawn within the mode of the mind the idea
that the "I" sense may be the substratum of the
thoughts and images focused on and is not the basis of an
identity with these changing images.
The reflection that arises in the mind (manana) as a
result of the ability of the mind to now discriminate
between the sense of "I" as the subject from
the appearing images, acts like a beacon that seeks out,
dissolves and outshines every thought that arises in the
mind, leaving over the sense of the single "I,"
which the mind is now able to reflect with greater and
greater clarity and purity.
While this sense involves a profound and continuous
deepening and sense of deeper knowledge, insight and
abidance in the Truth, it is still a reflection of the
Truth (flashing forth from the Heart [Hrdayam]).
The realization that Atman is the eternal Witness of the
waking dreaming and deep sleep states as well as all
modes of mind and planes of consciousness, does not in
itself convert the individual to that Witness, which is
the all pervasive Brahman. In other words, the awakening
to the Christ Consciousness does not also mean that one
is One with the Father.
The key to the final realization of the Truth is in the
unique and formless objectiveless meditation, which is
called "abiding." Explaining how His Truth is
in fact the Truth of all, Christ states in John Ch 15:
"Abide in me, and I in you. As a branch cannot bear
fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can
you, except you abide in me. (verse 4)
"I am the vine, you are the branches...apart from me
you can do nothing."
(verse 5)
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By continuously hearing that the "I" sense,
that which gives the feeling of realness to everything,
is actually a reflection of the Universal All-Pervasive
Consciousness (the Father), and by shifting the mind's
attention from the use of this "I" sense from
focusing on this and that to formulate an identity, to
beginning a new formulation to sort out this apparently
new concept that the "I" mode of the mind,
which carries with it that "I am this and that"
may in fact be single and only a reflection of something
much greater and more profound, results in what appears
to be a flashing forth or pulsation of the "I."
The "I" sense, which was formerly always
thought of as being the basis for one's sense of identity
to the body and impressions and images filling the mind,
begins to be drawn into its source, giving the sense of
absorption and enquiry, an enquiry into a sense of such
single importance that it begins to overcome all other
pursuits of the mind, as though they are trivial by
comparison.
At some point this absorption is recognized as
"abiding" in and as one's own Self and the
reflected consciousness that formerly denoted an
"I" in the mind is outshined, Pure Being
Consciousness flashes forth and one abides as that
Center, that Ground, in which there is no time, no space,
yet space-like. The fictitious "I"is
Transfigured.
This abiding (niddidyasana) is the meditation of "I
and my Father are One."
John 10:30.
The "I" conceit, i.e., that the "I"
is in identity with anything focused on in the mind,
dissolves completely, and what remains is beyond duality,
oneness and non-duality.
In Revelations, Ch I: 8, Christ tells John:
"I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the
ending" sayeth the Lord, "which is, and which
was, and which is to come, the Almighty."
April
8
Might we
just once listen to the children....
presented
by Gloria Lee
The poems
may be read all together at the webpage
http://www.nonduality.com/terezin.htm
SONGS OF
CHILDREN
This collection of nine poems written by children while
interned at Terezin
Concentration Camp were selected as the lyrics for a
cantata composed by Robert Convery in memory of all
children who perished in the Holocaust. It was first
performed in NYC, April of 1991.
3. ON A
SUNNY EVENING
On a purple, sun-shot evening
Under wide-flowering chestnut trees
Upon the threshold full of dust
Yesterday, today, the days are all like these.
Trees flower forth in beauty,
Lovely too their very wood all gnarled and old
That I am half afraid to peer
Into their crowns of green and gold.
The sun has made a veil of gold
So lovely that my body aches.
Above, the heavens shriek with blue
Convinced I've smiled by some mistake.
The world's abloom and seems to smile.
I want to fly but where, how high?
If in barbed wire, things can bloom
Why couldn't I? I will not die!
Michael Flack, 1944
8. BIRDSONG
He doesn't know the world at all
Who stays in his nest and doesn't go out.
He doesn't know what birds know best
Nor what I want to sing about,
That the world is full of loveliness.
When dewdrops sparkle in the grass
And earth's aflood with morning light,
A blackbird sings upon a bush
To greet the dawning after night.
Then I know how fine it is to live.
Hey, try to open up your heart
To beauty; go to the woods someday
And weave a wreath of memory there.
Then if the tears obscure your way
You'll know how wonderful it is
To be alive.
Anonymous, 1941
The Great
Perfection [Dzogchen] teaches that reality is not an
object of verbal expression or conceptual analysis.
Reality and enlightenment are identical; in the final
analysis "being" and "knowing" are
the same. If one truly knows, there is no need to discuss
or analyze philosophically how one knows, or what one
knows. Great Perfection meditation is described as
effortless, free of concepts and subtle distortions; in
this way it conforms to the radical immanence of ultimate
reality taught in Vajrayana ["the pervasive,
unfabricated presence of divine form, divine sound, and
gnosis-awareness"]. In the "Beacon" and
elsewhere Mipham argues that all philosophical views,
including the Great Perfection, are resolved in the
principal of coalesence. Though coalescence is defined in
different ways in different philosophical contexts, in
essence it is the nonduality of conventional and ultimate
realities. Coalescence is the immanence of ultimate
reality, which in Madyamaka [Middle Way] philosophy is
known as the inseparability of samsara and nirvana.
In advocating nonconceptual meditation the Great
Perfection might seem to contradict the Madyamika method
of discerning reality through critical analysis and the
contemplative enhancement of rational certainty that
analysis makes possible. The Great Perfection (and
certain other traditions which have been practiced in
Tibet, including Ch'an) has often been criticized by
Tibetan scholars who thought it utterly incompatible with
the critical philosophical approach of Madyamaka. This
perceived incompatibility is based on the assumption that
the very different philosophical views and practical
methods that typify the subitist [immediate] approach of
the Great Perfection and the gradualist approach of the
Madyamaka cannot both access ultimate meaning. Mipham's
writings suggest that this perceived contradiction
reflects a one-sided or impoverished understanding of the
Madyamika philosophical view. In the "Beacon",
certainty mediates the causal connection between theory
and gnostic vision, and between soteric [salvational]
methods and the ultimate reality that those methods
reveal. Thus, the "Beacon" teaches that
certainty belongs to both reason and experience, to
ordinary consciousness and sublime gnosis, and to
Madyamaka as well as the Great Perfection.
April
10
God, the
Great Thief
by Gene Poole
In a
scenario reversed of the 'Wizard of Oz, the seeker takes
what is most treasured, on the royal road to meet God.
In this version, the one who has a 'brain', takes that
'brain', as a great treasure, on the way to meet God.
The one who has 'courage' also takes this 'courage', as a
great treasure, on the way to meet God.
The one who has 'heart', takes this 'heart', as a great
treasure, on the way to meet God.
The bringer and carrier of these magnificent treasures,
sets out on the path of the seeker, on the way to meet
God.
In The Wizard of Oz, the Wizard 'gifts' each supplicant
with what they most desire; it is apparent to the viewer
of the movie, that what actually happened, was that each
supplicant 'on the way to meet the Wizard', endured
trials which themselves developed those very gifts which
were then officially 'bestowed' and validated by the
Wizard, at the end of the story.
In our new version, each who carries the great treasure
of mind, courage, and heart, is 'ripped off' of these
treasures; at the end of this new version, each seeker
arrives to meet with god, denuded of the 'great
treasures' with which they began their journeys.
The one with the 'brain' arrives, a drooling idiot; the
one with 'courage' arrives, a quivering coward; and the
one with 'heart', arrives to meet with God, devoid of
love.
At this point, God reveals that it has been 'He', God,
who had appeared as the forces and entities which
challenged 'brain, courage, and heart', disintegrating
the assumptions and expectations of each seeker.
It had been God, who appeared as the riddler who baffled
'brain'; it had been God, who had appeared as the
monster, who had shattered 'courage'; and it had been
God, who had appeared as the Being who enticed, tempted,
and betrayed 'heart'.
Now, the trio of seekers is facing God, empty handed. And
now, these seekers are facing the fullness of the
emptiness which they themselves are. They are facing what
they could not know, see, or feel,as long as they
treasured their special qualities; now devoid of these
special qualities, they see without attachment or
compensation.
Devoid of tools, the seeker cannot fix; devoid of false
image, the seeker cannot pretend; and devoid of
anaesthetic, the seeker cannot help but feel.
Unable to fix, unable to pretend, and doomed to actually
feel, the seekers now face their true, uncompensated
nature; unable to turn away, they now are able to see,
know, and feel God...
Surprise!
Happy Birthday!
Cracklin' good,
==Gene Poole==
April
11
Only
INTENTIONAL Action or Action with VOLITION Bears a Fruit
or a Result
by KKT
Dear
everybody,
The storm was over, and the sun shines again :-)) Life
goes on and on after so much emotion on the list :-))
But precisely I like [NDS] because it is a non-moderated
list. And I think this is the strength of [NDS] :-) I
think [NDS] has a life by itself :-)
Thereupon, I am not against the "harsh" methods
used by some people on the list. I myself is a fan of
Gurdjieff who is the best master in the art of
"shock" treatments :-))
According to Gurdjieff's teachings, the Fourth Way, and
considering the actual "level" of mankind, the
appropriate work for a possible transformation of man's
consciousness is not the work on the intellectual center
but the one on the emotional center :-))
Do you notice the enormous energy released during every
tumultuous occasion?
:-))
Therefore, being harsh or nice, it doesn't matter :-))
What matters, what is important is the *INTENTION* behind
the words. And to illustrate this point I will use a
Buddhist doctrine, the doctrine of Karma.
Karma means 'action', 'doing'. An action could be
physical, verbal or mental. And an action, good or bad,
would produce a good or bad effect. "You reap what
you sow." This is the general meaning of karma as
believed by the Hindus with its corollary that is the
doctrine of reincarnation.
But according to Buddhism, "VOLITION IS KARMA".
This is a very important point. It means that only
INTENTIONAL action or action with VOLITION bears a fruit
or a result. This point is very important because it
means that an unintentional action or an action without
volition bears no fruit, no result. As an example found
in the book "The Way to Nirvana" by L. De La
Vallee Poussin:
"By giving gold, while intending to give a stone, a
gift of gold is indeed made; but, as it has not been
premeditated or willed, the act is as if it were not done
. It is not 'appropriated': it is not 'stored up'
(upacita); it will bear no fruit. In the same way, if a
man kills his mother when striking at what is believed to
be a pumpkin, there is no matricide, there is no murder,
there is only destruction of a fruit."
To illustrate this point, it is interesting to contrast
with the Jainist doctrine of Karma . According to
Jainism, an action, either intentional or unintentional,
bears the same fruit. The man who commits murder, or who
harms in any way a living being, without intent, is no
less guilty than the one who commits murder with intent.
It means that Jainism gives importance to the bodily and
verbal karma .
But with Buddhism, when you give "fuel" to your
thoughts, when you have intention, volition, even if you
have not yet expressed it in a concretely physical or
verbal action, there is already karma! :-))
Thus the importance of having GOOD intention.
And what is a *GOOD* INTENTION?
I think the answer is evident. It must be LOVE :-)) Yes,
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE .... :-)) Please, have LOVE in your
heart :-))
So whatever is the use of your words or your
"methods" on the list, harsh or nice, please
have LOVE in your heart :-))
The following passages are the beginning of a series of meditations I applied during the years 1988 and 1989 in order to come to the Realization of my True Nature. The notes were discovered in this very abbreviated, sketchy diary form just recently, and I would like to offer them as inspiration to all seekers on the path of Non-duality.
Everybody experiences a variety of different situations and encounters in daily life, but the common thread in all situations is the inherent potential for deep meditation and knowledge of one's True Self. Allow yourself to experience your life as such: an opportunity to understand who you really are. Allow yourself to be inspired by your mind's potential to see clearly and deeply into Truth, and enjoy the resulting freedom and joy which is yours to begin with.
In the following months "Reflections" you will see in these diary entries that not all meditations are purely joyful, peaceful and serene, but also many times depicting an urgency, a deep need to find a resolve and a way out of imagined bondage. This imagined bondage seems so very real and its unreality can only be seen by intense, focused inquiry into the nature of Self. Nevertheless, the moment of intense, total commitment to Truth, born out of the desperate need to become free from illusion, is in its essence as perfect as the most joyful and serene contemplation on the nature of Mind itself.
And that is the beauty and perfection of spiritual practice: that the beginning, the middle and the end are made up of the same essence, the essence of Mind itself and that nothing was ever wrong or missing in one's True Nature. But, a word of caution from the wise to the wise: YOU have to discover this truth for yourself because nobody can do it for you and you really would not want to miss this most amazing adventure life has to offer.
The following is a reprint of this personal diary and is followed by a brief commentary when clarification or expansion on a point is in order.
Life is an expression of LOVE. Take down the walls, it is not difficult when there is Love, Unity, Joy, Peace, Closeness, Oneness, Happiness.
Forthright, open, honest communication. Leave all shyness behind, push for the right things. Be ruthless on yourself (ego) and loving towards others.
No judgement. Love-Energy-Consciousness
Attunement to that which is holiness, that which is ancient, that which is reflected in symmetry, that which is the true usefulness in all holy objects. Experience versus inspiration - speaking from my heart according to my experience.
Self-judgement is a filter between the true feelings in my heart and the outer communication. Tear down all walls, even the small ones.
Openness, directness, honesty are important spiritual qualities. Let the love shine in your heart and let your life be an expression of your love, always.
More desire is needed, whole hearted application of practice. There is still more than 100% - and I'll try.
In order to experience life as it really is we need to destroy the invisible walls we have constructed around us. These walls were supposed to protect us from others who might see how incomplete we really are, but is this really so? To open up to love, unity, peace, joy, closeness, oneness and happiness makes it so easy to let go of defenses and the walls seem to have no longer any use, because there is no need to hide something that is made up of the same substance as life itself. The division between the inner (which is mistaken as flawed) and the outer (which is seen now as beautiful and filled with love) disappears and imaginary walls dissolve.
Without forthrightness true communication cannot be established. One has to be open and honest, overcoming personality attributes such as shyness, in order to get to the core of the really important questions in life. By being absolutely unforgiving and ruthless with one's ego and loving toward others we enter into a true communion where there is no difference between self and others. When judgement of self and others is destroyed, the flow from love into energy into consciousness is established.
At the time of this entry I still believed that spiritual forms, symbols and rituals were an important avenue into meditation, and that in order to see into my True Nature the outer circumstances had to be "right" and only a certain "holy" atmosphere was conducive to this inward turning of the mind. Later, during the course of my practice, I realized that this artificial division between the sacred and the mundane, as an important prerequisite for meditation, of course only prevented me from taking all situations as an opportunity for spiritual practice.
All things in life can teach lessons and offer opportunity for meditation. When I learned to look at life from an ever deepening view, I noticed that Reality was reflected in so many ways. I became attuned to this view and the sacredness of life itself opened up like a flower in spring, and everyday life was transformed. I let myself be inspired by things which were meant to be pointers into a true depth, and then allowed my heart to open to the direct experience of this depth and speak from there rather than an intellectual analysis of spirituality.
"How do I look when I speak about this? What will he/she/they think if I talk about this feeling or thought? What will happen if I use the wrong spiritual terms to express my meditations? Etc., etc., etc...." All these self-judgments are standing in the way of true and honest communication. They do not allow the true feelings in the heart to come forth and be expressed, and they just add another layer of bricks to the wall.
The desire for Liberation is one of the most important qualities a seeker can bring to the Teaching of Non-duality. You do not have to be smart, well-read, carry a huge backpack of past spiritual knowledge or be a special person in any other way, but if you have the desire and intent to find out who you really are, you are well on the way to experiencing a deeply rewarding life that is lived more and more consciously every day. This desire will help you to see through imagined limitations and will give you the strength to go through trying times in practice, when old concepts seem just too overwhelming. The desire for freedom is your best friend, so hold on to your best friend on your path.
In my meditations, I would usually spend a moment of reflection on how much I had applied myself to my spiritual practice during the day and how much more I could give of myself tomorrow. And if I felt that it had been a good day of meditation and I had given a 100% of my energy I would promise myself that tomorrow it would be 110%. That way I was living in a universe of expansion, and less and less limitations I previously had imposed on my mind. And that is a wonderful way to live life!
April
13
The
Witness - A Short Essay
by
Tim Gerchmez
What is the Witness? It is that (in us)
which is detached and observing all phenomena, simply
registering events (input through the five senses,
thought, emotions, everything). The Witness simply
observes, and usually the observation gets stored in
memory - thus, it serves the function of
observing/recording, like a video camera or tape
recorder. Even remembering something from the past is
witnessed and stored as a memory, the memory of recalling
memories.
In every state there is witnessing, but it is normally
confused with the
person (= memory = thought = time). It is possible for
the identity of the person with the Witness to break, and
this has occurred to me at least once. One time I
remember clearly -- it was a most curious sensation. I
was brushing my teeth at the time. Suddenly I was
observing the body as it went through the motions of
tooth-brushing. It was like the body was moving by
itself, and I was watching - "I" was not doing
anything but watching as the body faithfully performed as
it was supposed to. It was most unusual, as if watching a
puppet perform, but not at all disconcerting. As emotions
are a form of thought and arise from memory, there was no
emotion connected with the event.
At other times, I have experienced a most peculiar
phenomenon, where I can "feel" what others are
feeling (as physical sensation). For example, seeing
someone grip the steering wheel in a car, I can feel the
sensation in their hands as they grip it (it is not felt
in "my hands" but is simply felt). This is so
disconcerting that it can be immensely disturbing. It's
possible that so-called "depersonalization"
experiences (where a person sees themselves but does not
recognize who they are seeing, or simply has a dramatic
(but usually temporary) sensation of not knowing who they
are) are experiences where the Witness is temporarily
dis-identified with "the
person" (again, the person = memory).
Most depend on the Witness regularly, but are unaware of
it. Anyone who has driven home from work in a deep
daydream or half asleep, and is startled to "come
to" suddenly and find themselves arriving home
safely, has been guided by the Witness. Some people have
driven a car dead drunk for miles, yet somehow managed to
get home. The Witness obviously serves a vital function,
yet when confused with remembered events, appears as
"the person."
Being universal (as consciousness), the Witness is not
limited in perspective as the eyes and other senses are.
It can observe and register from "above" the
body, or to any side, similar to a movable camera. This
has been routinely observed in past-life regression
therapy, where the person observing themselves in their
past life sometimes sees out their own eyes, and
sometimes from an "external" or third-person
perspective (this has puzzled some past-life regression
hypnotists). It can also be observed in near death
experiences (NDE's), when the body is seen from above,
being
worked on by doctors, and in so-called "out of body
experiences."
It seems there is in reality only one universal Witness.
Could this
account for so-called "ESP" or
"mind-reading?" How about those times when a
person KNOWS something has happened to someone they are
close to (despite any supporting evidence) and it turns
out to be true? It seems likely that all minds are linked
as the universal Witness. A lot of conclusions can be
drawn from this idea, and it certainly explains many
unusual things that are otherwise unexplainable.
The Witness is the bridge between the Absolute and the
person. When the Witness ceases to register
"external" or "internal" events (for
whatever reason) and begins to witness ITSELF, the bridge
is crossed. Since the Witness is really the Self, if the
Witness witnesses itself (sometimes referred to as
"awareness of awareness" or "awareness
attending to itself," the Self is seen. This does
*not* get recorded in memory, since there is nothing to
record (the Self is not an object of perception). Rather,
a radical change in perspective occurs. The Witness
"becomes" the Self (Reality, Absolute, Brahman)
and is no more. It seems that this can be either
permanent or temporary, and that there is the illusion
(created by the mind) that this dissolution it is a
process, taking time. I suspect that it is really
instantaneous (timeless) but the person (thought-memory)
perceives it as a process taking time to complete. The
habit of perceiving everything as process is a difficult
one to break.
As the Absolute, identity remains. Transcendence does not
mean
destruction. The body is really the mind (and
vice-versa,) and to separate the two is a falsehood. As
long as the body-mind continues, identity continues,
although not memory-based personality. Some have said
that a sort of "shell" of an ego is left
behind, but filled with Divinity (= Void = Total
Fullness) rather than memories and habits. When the body
of a "realized" person finally dies, the last
of the identity dies with it, leaving only the Absolute
and nothing to be reborn as another body.