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January 5, 2000: Is Satsang Phony?, by
Jerry M. Katz and Greg Goode
January 6, 2000: This is Not An Apple, by Phil
Burton
January 7, 2000: Dichotomizing Assumptions and
Overlays of Maya, by Jody and Dan
January 8, 2000: Helen Dhara Gatling-Austin 1998
January 9, 2000: Gong, Shower, Awareness, by Skye
Chambers
January 10, 2000: The Ghost in the Garbage Pile: A
Tidbit from the Bony Fingers of Old Hag
January 11, 2000: Cause and Effect, by Terry
Murphy
January 14, 2000: Within It No Darkness: On Karma
and Enlightenment, by Terry Murphy and Dan Berkow
January 15, 2000: Slippery Insubstantial Guy Slips
Away!, by Melody Anderson and Andrew Macnab
January 16, 2000: Undue Attention on Barry
January 17, 2000: Criteria to Fine Dust, by Gene
Poole
January 18, 2000: All Out Sonny and I
January 20, 2000: Bhakti Analysis, by Michael Rosker,
introduction by Greg Goode
January 21, 2000: The Deepest Secret, by Skye
Chambers
January 22, 2000: Invisible Leadership: Igniting
the Soul at Work, by Rob Rabbin
January
5:
Is Satsang Phony?
by Jerry M. Katz and Greg Goode
Jerry
writes:
Why do all these Satsang people sound the same? The same
pacing. The same pausing. The same eternal tone. The same, 'You
see'. The same little humor. The same 'in the moment importance'.
Why do I feel like I'm being sucked into something? Why do I feel
the current Satsang movement is no different than any religious
movement with their intonations and rituals and fulfillment of
expectations?
Where is the unpredictability? Where is the rebellion? Why do I
have to turn Vartman off and listen to the hum of my computer if
I want to hear something real?
As a boy required to attend synagogue I felt stifled. I felt more
alive and in touch with life when I departed the synagogue.
Somehow I had the insight that just being alone in the day's sun
was as religious and spiritual and Godly as it gets.
Now I have that same feeling with Satsang. It's bullshit. Just
listen to Vartman. You know anyone can say anything they want
with that pacing and tone of voice and it will sound spiritual
and wonderful. Using Vartman's tone, try saying the following:
"I'm going to sue your ass in court ... you see ... you
slimy stinking good for nothing bastard ... you piece of human
garbage, you are the lowest form of human existence ... you see
... you horrible ..."
And don't you hate it when you're reading transcripts of Satsang
and you come upon the clue-in: [laughter]. I hate that. Just let
me read the transcript and I'll decide if it's funny or not.
So what's my point? Nothing holds. Reality is not to be found in
Satsang with all its good feeling and relaxation and mellowness
and truth. Reality is not found. It is known to be here and now.
You see.
Greg Goode writes:
Dear Jerry,
Very good points. For many people, they have to go to lots and
lots of satsangs before they see that they don't really have too.
Same as any other practice, even when satsang is stated to not be
a practice :-) I myself see the satsang phenomenon as a hilarious
divine comedy.
One reason that so many sound alike is that many come from the
same line of teachers. Papaji has perhaps the most in the West
(maybe Osho has more).I first saw Vartman's info on the Papaji
website called http://www.poonja.com/Satsang.htm, you'll see pictures and notices of
those who are sharing what they got from Papaji. One person told
me that Papaji had "officially authorized" 17 people to
share satsang in the West. They have authorized others. I myself
was authorized to share satsang in this same way, by Michael
Rosker, who was authorized by Moksha, who was authorized by
Prasad, who was authorized by Papaji.
Here's a quote from that Papaji, according to which there are
more than that!
...he sent out thousands of what he called
"ambassadors". And so now there are literally thousands
of "official" ambassadors, each one sharing, in their
own way, what they received from the Master Poonjaji."
And there's even a link to send mail so you can be added to that
page as an ambassador carrying Papaji's message: mailto:sanga@poonja.com.
In general, there are lots of satsang cultural conventions I've
seen and been told about by world-traveling satsang attendees,
including:
-The measured, spiritual vocal delivery
-Lots and lots and lots of hugs
-The competitive locking of eyes to see who sees the most of the
Self in the other person (a great friend of mine is the U.S.
national champion!)
-The well known Lucknow Disease of avoiding the "I"
word in speech
-The assumption on the part of some teachers that anyone sitting
in a satsang can be given advice and told what to do because they
are seeking
Most of this There's lots more too!
January
6:
This Is Not An Apple
by Phil Burton
Vedas and
Upanishads describe reality as: Being-Consciousness-Bliss. It is
said that all-that-is is Consciousness.
All language is based on difference and thrives on negation. What
does this mean? To say "what something is" is limited
to saying what something is not. "Apple" does not
communicate a real "apple" but negates all that is not
apple. We call it an "apple" because it's not a pear,
etc.. The essence of "apple" is a whole experience of
"appleness" and cannot be set in words or verbal
definitions. Mind, which distinguishes, is a sense which acts on
the same limitations as all other senses taken seperately. E.g.,
"seeing" the apple is seeing only the shiny red
surface, but missing the pulp and the seeds and the core. Every
sense (seeing, hearing, thinking, tasting, and so forth)
perceives a surface.
To "define" an apple it would be necessary to see it
whole. It would be necessary to take into account all of its
causes and its interconnections with the ecosystem. The whole of
anything is the Whole of reality. Everything is a
"cause" to everything.
Sri Nisargadatta, asked about God, described God as the
"totality of manifestation". In all my reading I have
not found a better or more evocative description. But the thing
about descriptions is that they invoke something in the one who
inquires and investigates. They invoke a kind of cognitive
empathy which enables a similar perception. Don't just take
someone's word for it: see through those words: SEE!
"All is Consciousness." Analyze this on a verbal level
and it is meaningless. But see it whole and it is consciousness
speaking to consciousness. The very doubt brought to bear on it
is consciousness. It's a way of saying: "Give your attention
to Attention!"
Eat your apple!
January
7:
Dichotomizing
Assumptions and Overlays of Maya
by Jody and Dan
Jody::I
know quite a few folk that expect that upon realization, their
sense of themselves as individuals will be permanently
obliterated, as they will then come to know that "all is
one." This is in fact not true, at least not in every case
of realization, and in fact not in a single case of realization
that I've come to know.
Dan: The belief in obliteration of
individuality, the attempt to stop being an individual, is a
distortion and involves an "inner contraction" based on
conceptualizations that set "good" against
"bad". On the other hand, the ending of belief in a
separate individual is an opening into true individuality
(uniqueness). This moment is expression of uniqueness. The ending
of attachment to beliefs about a self that one "should"
be or "must" be (whether a "oneness" self or
a "material" self) is the shedding of a straightjacket
that prevents true individuality, that is, which limits the
expression of uniqueness emanating from presentness.
Jody: I've observed in my exploration of online
discussions that some folk have a tendency to develop
intellectual models of nondual being and then adopt them as their
"reality" when in fact they've only applied yet another
overlay of Maya.
Dan: Yes, and one might get caught in the Maya
of believing that one is fighting Maya, and is being liberated,
when in fact one is maintaining and promoting a self-satisying
belief system (in which perhaps one even believes one is
"losing the ego").
Jody: While reality can be *said* to be nondual,
it is *us* as beings that *are* nonduality. The container of
social experience will always be dual. People attempt to deny the
dual nature of social existence in order to make it fit their
ideas of nondual reality, when in fact all they've done is
applied another concept and layer of hindrance between themselves
and their realization.
Dan: An interesting perspective here. I see your
point. Social experience then is not true experience, but is the
continuation of past forms, memory images, concepts, beliefs, and
culturally imposed expectations. To participate in social
experience as you've described it is to contend with unreality.
Duality is nonduality when viewed without dichotomizing
assumptions. Social experience, as you appear to be discussing
it, is, itself, the acceptance of dichotomizing assumptions. So,
perhaps one can engage in the realm of dichotomizing assumptions
(social interaction), without making those assumptions one's own,
and without fighting against them by promoting
"oneness" beliefs that are actually another form of
dichotomizing.
January 8:
Helen Dhara
Gatling-Austin 1998
(contributed by Terry Murphy)
I
Never Knew
Take off the backpack
Lie down in the long grass.
Pull up the blue sky-blanket.
Rest.
So many years of Dharma practice,
Straight-spine diligence, straining toward
enlightenment.
Today.
This hillside.
Just this.
Lie down in the long grass.
Let the earth take you.
Deer tracks and horse dung
and the eye within the eye,
revolving and luminous.
I never knew this.
Did no one tell me?
I remember my Zen master in the interview room,
"Trust yourself," he said. "Just be
yourself."
I think his meaning was this:
Take off the backpack,
Lie down in the long grass.
Let the sky take you.
Rest.
Breathe space
into space
into space.
I never knew there was this much light!
January
9:
Gong, Shower,
Awareness
by Skye Chambers
Hi Skye,
I've been interested in Goenkaji for some time but have never
done the program. Could you give us a few words on your own
understanding of the approach and perhaps something on your
experience of the practice?
Thanks, Larry
------------------------------
Hi Larry,
Happy to be of service.
During the 9 days of sacred silence (in my case with 70 people),
no meeting of eyes, no reading, tv or radio, no entertainment
none of the usual external entertainment one starts to experience
sensory deprivation and strong esp and psychic hallucinations
appear, annoying at first. On the last day of sacred speech,
which by the way is like an enormous dam of love bursting we
literally ran into each other's arms, hung off our bunks into the
wee hours, going over the amazing experience. All had experienced
these strong psychic hallucinations from being deprived so
unexpectedly. I just ignored them.
My most prominent impression during and after the retreat, other
than the amazing waves of peace and serenity i felt, was that we
are SO MUCH stronger than we ever realize, Jan knows this.
Because it does become a TORTURE! We were meditating in total
silence from 5am till 9pm and the monkey mind/body plays all
sorts of tricks to try and tempt you to stop!! catch the plane to
Bali, anywhere, anything is better than this :-)
Three times a day Goenkaji joined us for 1 hour periods, guiding
our mediation and giving dharma talks. He entered from a side
door sat on a dias in in the lotus position in front of us,
females one side of the hall, males the other so as not to divert
attention at any time.
On the first day "GONG" 4AM! shower, we are quite
rested and not in need of much assistance, so the meditation
begins with the buddha's technique of concentrating on the
breath, as it flows out across the little triangle between the
nose and mouth and to bring ones attention back there constantly
whenever our thoughts have carried us away again.
On the third day "GONG" 4AM! shower, we are to meditate
on a circle at the top of the head. We all burst out laughing -
oops - at the end of the day when he comes out and says
"feels like little ants running around up there doesn't
it".
He also explains that today and tomorrow may become really hard
to endure and the mind will try to find excuses for why we should
not continue. But it is not wise to get up off the operating
table with your guts open, we will bleed psychically everywhere,
so just press on. And sure enough it became harder.
On the fourth day "GONG" 4AM! we are to meditate on
each and every portion of the head, for we are unable, like
experienced yogis, to feel the whole body down to the toes, as
though a bucket of water had been dropped from above. We all nod
when he says at the end of the day "bet you couldn't feel
this part here or there" etc and it was so, we are blind to
much of our own body. That fourth day is grueling because we also
begin the 1 hour 3 times a day sitting without moving a muscle.
Wow that's a challenge, one really competes with oneself now.
When one gets an itch or the limbs start to burn from constant
unrelieved pressure, nothing can be done about. At the end of
each hour Goenka comes through his door to release us. All eyes
have been glued to that door for the last half hour praying for
his entrance to relieve us from our pain. Hilarious. Though not
at the time.
On the fifth day "GONG" 4AM! shower, we are instructed
to meditate on every minute portion of our upper limbs, which of
course is not easy and the grueling 1 hour 3 times a day sitting,
continue now till the end of the 9th day. On the sixth day, the
lower portions of the body.
On the eight the whole body.
On the 9th i began to feel a vibration just outside the skin
which seemed to vibrate so fast it is still?? Some sort of a
bliss body? It felt like bathing in rays of sunshine and i felt
so alive and aware of myself and everyone around me. I had
learned so much. Now i refuse to believe myself, whenever i cry
"i can't" anymore. We can, but it was tough, for this
sensory overloaded 20th century child.
The vegetarian food was exquisite, males and females dined in
separate rooms facing a panoramic vista of blue blue eucalyptus
mountains, ahh how the marvels nature mesmerized us. After the
fourth day all heavy grain food stops after lunch and the evening
meal consists of fruit only.
I could go on forever, but that is how it affected me.
Naturally others spoke of different effects, some none at all. A
pregnant woman and her 10 year old attended and she and we were
all astounded that her child had been able to sit patiently
through every meditation throughout the whole nine days!
At the end of the retreat one pays only for what one got out of
it. Payment is not compulsory. But many must have been
contributing over the years because the retreat is looking
gorgeous, zen gardens and all.
We are reminded all through the retreat, that this intensive is
only the preliminary and to continue meditating now on our chosen
path for whatever length of time suits us, each day.
One returns home after such an event, rather spaced out.
The body, everything, awareness is so alive, its quite
disturbing. Ones normal energy outlets during 9 days silence have
been dammed and the urge to party and communicate is very strong.
That night i experienced the most beautiful sensual sex in my
whole life. I called it zen sex, because without any movement at
all the body was exploding like a symphony of fireworks. It was
like "don't move don't move"
ahh what amazing bliss and love.
Here's the link to learn more about the communities http://www.dhamma.org.
January 10:
The
Ghost in the Garbage Pile: A Tidbit from the Bony Fingers of Old
Hag
Hello, all dears:
Regarding "triggers" and their effects gradually
fading: one of the phrases around the pile is "shining the
flashlight of awareness" on them." And i see the
effects of the trigger, the "echoes,"the neurotic
reactions, the ego patterns/conditionings, the
"kleshas,"as the witch in the Wizard of Oz. When i
shine the awareness flashlight on the witch, it is like throwing
a bucket of water on her; she puts her hands over her eyes,
screams, "Arghhh..." and dissolves into a puddle.
Now, sometimes the kleshas are so deeply embedded that it takes a
lot of bucket tossing, but each time their power is less and
less, and eventually they fade altogether, Ding! Dong! The Witch
is dead!!
And if they do raise their bony skeletons from the grave, their
power only comes from any attention i give to them.
Apparitions The parts of me that have died often moan at their
own demise and even raise their bony heads to attempt a ruse -
make me believe they are still alive.
But now I realize they no longer have power.
If I pay no heed to their ghostly rattlings they will soon fall
back into their graves - less able to rise again - for their only
life is granted by my attention.
So, for old woman, it is the Mindfulness, the moment by moment
Awareness, shining that ole flashlight, that does the trick -
certainly not tryin' to get the trigger to stop triggerin' by
talking to it, "hey, stop that, you are making me
feel...." wooeee, that sure was a waste of time for this old
bag.
It seems so simple, that i used to run around trying something
more complicated, surely there must be more to "do," i
thought, but i found there was nothin' to "do" except
watch them kleshas at their play, to take full responsibility for
them, knowing that frettin' about whoever/whatever did the
triggerin' was missing the target, only the effect it was having
in me needed a wash down. And the power of that effect was
greatly diminished when it was caught in the Mindfulness beam, or
got drowned by that ole Awareness bucket.
And i ain't seen a bony finger gesturing, "Come 'ere, my
pretty, heh, heh..." in a long time. ,^))
So, that's all.
love, oh
January
11:
Cause and Effect
by Terry Murphy
I think that it is
crucial for anyone who really wants to have even an intellectual
grasp of anything approaching nonduality to realize that the only
way to understand the buddhadharma or Truth is to recognize that
there are both absolute and phenomenal views to be accounted for.
Thus geat masters often teach in terms of paradoxes, eg 'love
your enemies' or 'he who seeks to save his life shall lose it,
while he who loses his life shall preserve it.' In buddhism, what
is taught to a person is entirely a matter of skillful means, or
what is appropriate to that person at that time, and generalized
expressions may always be regarded as 1) right, 2)
wrong, 3) either right or wrong, and 4) neither right nor wrong.
'Cause and effect' or karma was preached about by the buddha, as
was rebirth, because these were generally regarded as realities
by the simple villagers he spoke with. On other occasions, in
more sophisticated company (such as I presume NDS to be), the
absolute views of dependendent co-arising of phenomena and the
absence of self were discussed.
It should be obvious, despite the mental gymnastics of uncounted
generations of buddhist dualistic 'philosophers', that if there
is no self, then there is no rebirth. I'm not even going to
bother arguing this point.
But I think it could be equally obvious, that if all 'things'
dependently co-arise, there is no karma or 'cause and effect'
either.
What I haven't seen discussed specifically on this list, but what
seems to me to be the essence of nonduality, is that dualism is
built-in to thought and speech via *language*. 'Things' are only
thought of as existing because they are named; in actuality
everything is one great cosmic egg; Ram Dass (Alpert) once put
it, 'The smallest particle in the universe is the universe.'
There really are no things. (All philosophical problems are
simply mistakes involving taking language literally, as the later
Wittgenstein's work claims; but that is another post.)
Cause and effect is similarly a matter of regarding things or
events as being actually capable of being abstracted from the
universal flow, as though there were some real self who could
influence events. While science and task-based thinking is based
on this sort of assumption, it is strictly a matter of
convenience and effectiveness that makes us use such 'laws' as
that of 'cause and effect,' and it is best to realize that they
are not actually 'true,' but provisional and phenomenal. (To
reach the) conclusion that this so-called 'law' is invariant and
cannot be gotten around is strikingly out of harmony with the
basic 'absolute' tenor of the rest of his discourse.
The first koan that Mu-mon put in his famous 'Gateless Gate' was
the well-known "Mu", but the very second involved just
this question of whether karma affected the enlightened or not.
Being a koan, it was not designed to take sides on the matter,
but to illuminate all sides. Here the salient issues are 1) is
karma ('cause and effect') valid? 2) can the enlightened escape
being bound by it? and 3) how does the buddhadharma, or teaching
of the Truth, deal with this issue?
Pardon me if I once again re-post a letter previously written on
the subject (which, in the forum it was posted, proved highly
controversial, but I imagine will scarcely create ripple among
this crowd of non-conformists - no offense intended - )
Friends,
Karma is the law of cause and effect. Like reincarnation,
buddhism inherited the idea of karma from the brahmins. To the
Indians of those days these ideas were simply taken for granted.
The buddha, being a practical man, came up with the 'middle way'
in order to balance the conventional experience of the phenomenal
world (samsara) with his enlightened view of the essential world
(nirvana). Actually, reincarnation makes little sense in relation
to the doctrine of anatta (no self); and karma makes little sense
in relation to the dependent origin of all things.
Zen, in its typical manner, grabs both sides of the
incompatability and throws them together, as the Zen middle way,
in the form of a koan. Everyone knows the conventional,
phenomenal world. Zen is concerned with satori, or kensho, the
actual experience of the essential world, which few are
consciously aware of. Ultimately, the phenomenal world is
delusory; 'ultimately, not one thing exists' (Hui Neng). The zen
master 'knows' this, but all beings need to know before the zen
master, one with all beings, can be completely free. So there is
'teaching,' in order to liberate all beings, this liberation
being the aim of existence and the destiny of the human race, the
summit of evolution.
The zen master has no karma, because he is free of delusion, free
of identification with the illusory phenomenal world. There is no
karma because there are no things, no individual beings; no
causes, no effects, only the dependent origination of everything
at once. In truth none of us have karma, and all of us are
enlightened. Samsara is nirvana, form is emptiness. But the
illusion cannot be dismissed so easily, it has to be seen
through, and to bring that about Zen uses what it calls, 'turning
words.' Koans in general take something from the phenomenal world
and marry it to the essential world, trying to shake the mind
loose from attachment to empty phenomena. When the monk asks
Joshu (in the first case of the Mumonkan), 'Does a dog have
buddha-nature,' both Joshu and the monk know that everything has
buddha-nature, and simply saying 'yes' would not be liberating,
would not be a turning word. So Joshu says 'Mu' which means no,
or nothing. With this Joshu is pointing to the essential world,
where there aren't any dogs who have a separate existence, where
all is buddha-nature.
Zen deals with the subject of karma most famously in the second
case of the Mumonkan. An old man confronts Hyakujo (the master
who was famous for saying 'a day without work is a day without
food'), and tells him a story. A long time before, the old man
was Zen priest, and was asked the question, "Does an
enlightened person fall under the law of cause and effect (karma)
or not?" He answered "He does not." For having
given this answer, he had spent 500 lives in the body of a fox.
He asked Hyakujo to say a turning word for him, and asked the him
the same question, "Does an enlightened person fall under
the law of cause and effect or not?" The master replied,
"The law of cause and effect cannot be obscured," which
answer liberated the old man from his fox body. When mumon
comments on this koan, he says that the old man had spent those
500 lives in a state of grace, that is, in a state of having no
karma. It is clear that the original answer to the question was
correct, and the old fox was actually enlightened. Nonetheless,
Hyakujo's answer indicates that the truthfulness of the answer
only obscured the meaning of karma for the original questioner.
Zen masters who are merely obscure are known as foxes or
fox-spirits. Mumon writes the verse:
Not falling, not obscuring, Two faces, one die.
Not obscuring, not falling, A thousand mistakes, ten thousand
mistakes.
The one die has six faces, two of which are the phenomenal world
and the essential world. The enlightened do not fall under the
law of karma, but the law cannot be obscured by them either, if
they want to avoid 500 lives as a fox.
It requires both answers to make this koan, and both are correct.
In truth there is no karma, no good and bad, no enlightened and
unenlightened.
But the effects of karma are nonetheless felt by most people, and
it does them no particular good to tell them karma doesn't exist.
It is similar to saying, 'samsara is nirvana' and expecting
people to be satisfied with their samsaric experience. Or as
though Joshu had answered yes instead of mu. In practice, we
create our own karma by doing things we know in our hearts to be
wrong. Karma is our way of punishing ourselves. Have you noticed
that most of the bad things that happen to you, you bring on
yourself? That's karma. Our conscious minds try to get away with
things that our unconscious minds know are wrong. Because the
purpose of life is to unfold spiritually, our unconscious minds
bring about circumstances which 'teach us a lesson.' If we
consciously hurt others, we unconsciously hurt ourselves; if we
do someone a good turn, we get to do ourselves one.
The enlightened are beyond all this. The fact that the world
exists only for the purpose of spiritual development is evident
to them at all times; they have no unconscious. The enlightened
can doing anything they want, but they don't ever want to do
anything self-indulgent or bad for the sake of
self-gratification. While the unenlightened follow rules and do
practices, the enlightened do anything that furthers love,
without reference to rules or morality. This enables them to
spontaneously do the right thing, without pausing to make moral
judgments and decisions.
Christianity is very similar. Jesus supplanted the ten
commandments with the one rule of love, and made it clear that he
was adding to the law, not subtracting from it. Love is a greater
morality than simply obeying rules designed to curb a natural
tendency to be selfish. Children and the unenlightened need rules
of behavior they can follow, but masters make their own rules,
they are 'a law unto themselves.'
January 14
Within
It No Darkness: on Karma and Enlightenment
by
Terry Murphy and Dan Berkow
D.
I wonder: How can there be a disagreement, if there is no
"you" proposing anything and no "me"
proposing anything?
T: If there is a difference between our views, it perhaps
involves this idea of simultaneously discriminating and
transcending. Do events have their consequences? Or are there no
events, and no consequences?
D: If there is a seamless nondivisible reality at work here, what
is the need to form a view about this? Once we engage in that
exercise, I can only see it as free expression of energy and
love.
As far as simultaneously discriminating and transcending, yes - I
agree, that is a difference in how we were speaking of the
situation. My words come from here: there are events and there
are not events. As there are events, we can discuss karmic
repercussions or consequences. As there are not events, we are
not contained by cause and effect realities.
As the world is seamless, no discussion of cause and effect or
karma pertains. As the world has differences, and we act
perceiving differences, in the practical world of human
interaction we can discuss cause and effect and karma. To be
simultaneously aware of both realities, without there being two
realities, is what I was expressing, although I'm not sure the
words I used conveyed it perfectly. The One reality, subsumes and
includes the other reality (time and consequence), and this for
me is transcendence.
It doesn't negate time and karma, it subsumes and transcends that
world. Thus, ultimately, nothing is split or divided. However,
being infinite, we can act "as if" there were a world
of time and phenomena. In other words, you and I can write these
words as if there were such a thing as forming a view, and there
will be repercussions to how we view each other's words - and at
the same time - no views are formed, no repercussions are
concerns.
T: Does time really exist,
D: No thing "really exists", no time "really
exists" - but time is perceived to exist, and we communicate
in that "realm" - the realm of words and thoughts -
"as if" time exists
T: or is it true that there is no time, only the unfoldment of
Now?
D: The reality of no-time cannot be described - "the
unfoldment of Now" is probably as good a description as any
- if any were possible.
T: Is there simultaneously a phenomenal world and an absolute,
essential world, or is the absolute world the True one, and the
phenomenal world a convenient illusion which is used by the
enlightened and uses the unenlightened?
D: Part of the problem is that I was using your words about
"the enlightened" and "the unenlightened"
whereas I wouldn't speak this way myself. It's an artificial
distinction and leads to the problems coming up here. There is
only Reality. The "phenomenal world" is itself Reality,
when seen as Infinity; however - interpretations bound to
phenomenally perceived distinctions, that is
"objectification" considered a reality, without
awareness *as* Reality, lead to erroneous imbeddedness in
thought-processes as reality. To say this simply, everything is
perfect as is, yet everything needs work, particularly
identifications with thought-processes as being "for a
self". Being is perfect, with becoming, work is needed - and
Being is becoming. The work involved in becoming involves
awareness of karma; that if I do this, that will result.
At the same time, there is no "I", no doing, no result,
no separation between now and then. No one becomes enlightened.
Enlightenment works on us so that we provide an opening for
enlightenment to operate, for the Timeless to work in time.
Simultaneously, there is no time. Words are a clumsy vehicle for
what is multidimensional and timeless.
T: I can say to you that karma neither exists nor does not exist.
*In essence*, there are no actual discrete events that may be
truly abstracted from the flow of universal energy; on the other
hand, *in practice* it is useful to regard certain inputs as
being causally related to certain outputs.
D: Your saying this resonates with me and, at least as perceived
from here, confirms the words I spoke previously. We live
"in Truth" because we "are Truth"; we
interact in the world in practical ways. Being is universal,
becoming is particular. Being is becoming.
T: I can also say that karma, like ego, is a genuine illusion, a
self-created prison for many people who constantly punish
themselves for imagined sins, and keep themselves down. If one
truly knows the absolute truth, does one really need to view
things in terms of cause and effect, or personality? Is the
enlightened view ('transcendence') a dual awareness of both
seamless whole and events with consequences, as you appear to
claim?
D: Well, it came across in words that way. The "dual
view" is simultaneously one view - so there's no
interference between time and eternity, karma and seamless
all-at-onceness. In answer to you here, if one truly knows the
absolute truth, there is no one knowing anything, only "pure
knowing" with no separation of knower and known - thus there
is no enlightened view or unenlightened view. This
"knowing" isn't an awareness of a doer, so no karma
pertains.
There is a perspective oriented to a body, a culture, and a time
and seeing that simultaneously there is no perspective, no
culture, and no time. If there were no body, you couldn't type
this, if there were no culture, we couldn't use these words, if
there were no perspectives, we couldn't have this discussion.
There is cause and effect here: you type, words come up. If you
typed different words, the message would be different. Your words
have an effect - this is "karma". At the same time, no
typing occurs, there is no perspective, logic and karma
*ultimately* don't pertain. So *ultimately* karma is perception,
perception depends on perspective, and perspective doesn't
pertain. Your words and my words are exchanged, but Reality
remains the same before, during, and after this exchange. No view
is formed and none is sought.
T: I don't think so, dan. I can sign that paycheck, I can press
down on the accelerator and make it on down to the airport to
pick you up, without ever varying my continuous awareness that
reality is a seamless whole and Now is the only time.
D: This is fine, yet as in your story - the post is a post. The
paycheck is a paycheck. Don't sign it and you don't get paid.
Drive drunk to the airport and you may get in an accident,
perhaps kill someone in the other car. This person who was killed
has relatives who will grieve that death. Tell the judge you're
enlightened, living in reality as a seamless whole, and karmic
rules don't apply to you.
See what difference that makes to the judge. See what difference
that makes to the grieving family. Because there is awareness of
consequences, I don't get drunk when I drive to the airport. I
don't claim that karma doesn't pertain to me, although
*ultimately* it doesn't. I have respect for the family that would
grieve the death, and don't tell them that they don't exist
because phenomenal reality isn't real. This is the point I have
been attempting to put into language - and it seems to me the
basis for whatever "disagreement" there appeared to be
in our views.
T: I may appear to 'others' as an Actor performing an Action, but
may myself only be aware of everything happening interdependently
with everything else in an utterly choiceless unfolding.
D: What you say here seems on target to me, essentially. Yet, as
there is no one there to make a choice, choice or choicelessness
aren't categories that seem to pertain. There is no one there
being aware of anything. Once you say that you are aware of
everything happening in a certain way, there is a
"someone" who has an awareness of "something"
which has some kind of quality (e.g. interdependence). Because
there is awareness of things happening in a certain way, there
can be the thought to write, there can be speech and thought.
There can be writing. In Reality, no one is doing the writing -
from what I understand of your position, we agree on this.
T: I'm not sure that you are not kind of mushing together the
absolute and the relative into a meaningless hash.
D: LOL - you give me powers I don't possess. After all, no one is
here who could do anything to the absolute and the relative, let
alone superhumanly make them into a meaningless hash. The
relativeness of relativity is the Absolute. The Absolute doesn't
dwell somewhere other than here. There is a plant on my desk. The
texture of the leaves is the Absolute. The color that my walls
are painted is the Absolute. The desk is the desk and the
computer is the computer. This is the Absolute. Am I saying that
the Absolute is a computer, and is a plant - no, not at all. Am I
mushing together the Absolute and the relative - no, that can't
be done. Yet, there is nothing apart from the so-called Absolute.
Whatever we happen to be labelling as phenomenal reality or
relativity is nothing other than Absoluteness.
T: We may have an intellectual grasp of the philosophical
advantages of monism while personally actually experiencing
ourselves as individual egos. If you experience "one
person's seeing" as "interactive karma" in a
really existent "'realm of interaction'"; in other
words simultaneously experiencing personal ego and intellectual
knowledge of some notion of universality, then we might be
sounding similar but actually be worlds apart.
D: How can we be worlds apart when the world is seamless? Your
stance seems to contradict itself. If there is no "you"
and "me" how can there be any personal experiencing of
ourselves as individual egos? How can there possibly be a
"me" experiencing a really existent realm of
interaction that isn't there?
T: Again, the reality of 'karma' is a psychological sense of
justice, or sin-and-its-consequences, which is almost universal
at a certain stage of human development.
D: I see karma as the mutual arising of phenomena when understood
in the thought-realm of perceived actions and consequences of
actions. It's a perception that all events are interwoven in
utter order, an order that includes everything that we perceive
as "random". Ignoring or avoiding this order because
you think it doesn't pertain to you is the "stench of
enlightenment", at least as seen from here.
Problems associated with this stance occur in antinomian
religious groups, and there have been many, only a few of which
we've discussed recently on this list. It's not uncommon for
leaders of these groups to claim themselves to be beyond karmic
consequences, to be God incarnate, beyond the reaches of time or
karma, or when Christian, to refer to themselves as being in a
state of grace where human laws and understandings don't pertain
to themselves or their actions. My expression was an attempt to
show why such endeavors and philosophies tend to go astray, how
they miss an aspect of reality - how such groups can bear fruit
that doesn't taste good. To say there is no such thing as karma
is true in terms of pure awareness, who one really is. But to say
there is no karma as one interacts day to day is often the
philosophical refuge of one who is intent on blindness about the
hurts others deal with. I'm not saying this is true of you at all
- I'm philosophically addressing the point in a way that
confronts its shortcoming in the world of day to day human
interaction.
T: Just as people powerfully feel that criminals should be
punished for their actions, they similarly judge and punish
themselves, using their own unconscious behavior to modify their
own conscious behavior. The 'unenlightened' are not consciously
aware that they are doing the best they can for the sake of all
sentient beings, though in actual fact they are. When they become
aware that they are actually doing their best for all beings,
that they are infallibly designed that way and can't do anything
else, any inner need for self-punishment falls away and 'karma'
as a psychological reality no longer applies. Just as ego is
transcended and realized to be an illusion, so the sense of
oneself as a sinner in need of punishment is realized to be an
illusion as well. Continuing to maintain these illusions once
they are realized to be such is delusion.
D: I find your statement above to be very clear. It fits well
with my perception. Thank you for stating it so clearly. My
resonation here is real to me. I see you stating very well what I
meant to say when I spoke of the "enlightened one" as
encompassing and transcending the entire world of karma. The
"enlightened one" doesn't destroy karma, but transcends
it. This is equivalent, in my view, to seeing that all beings are
actually working toward the enlightenment of all beings, or
"doing their best for all beings". However, seeing
this, really, will be evidenced by fruits of compassion.
Compassion includes awareness of temporal things, such as how to
use language, cultural meanings, etc. This is why I said the
"enlightened one" would operate in time while not being
in time.
Dan:
If there were not awareness of karma, the enlightened would,
without any discrimination about repercussions, do whatever they
felt like doing - and I agree with you, "they" don't do
this.
Terry:
Yes "they" do! :-) They have no awareness of karma at
all, and do whatever pops into their minds, without thinking.
This is why *siddhis* operate, because without any thought, with
any breaking of the connection with the infinite, the enlightened
spontaneously reflect the harmony of the cosmos.
D: You seem to imply that thought is bad, that being able to
reflect negates Infinity. You seem to dichotomize people again,
into the enlightened and unenlightened, with the enlightened
never having a thought and manifesting siddhis, while the
unelightened think and don't manifest siddhis. This is the kind
of dichotomization that I don't find useful, and I'm happier with
your statements that don't rely on such dichotomies. I think it's
this dichotomization that underlies the "disagreement"
you initially noted. It contradicts your previous statement that
*everything* is manifesting the order of the cosmos perfectly.
People who act on whatever pops into their head are impulsive.
You seem to equate impulsivity with no-mind. No-mind is no
awareness of a separate self, and thought associated with
nonawareness of a self tends to be focused toward immediate
issues, then dropped when not needed. Nonetheless, I agree that
spontaneity manifests universal order, that no thought is needed
to behave in perfect accord with the cosmos, and karma has no
"real" application to the "enlightened."
T: Rinzai says ('The Zen Teachings of Master Lin-chi,' trans
Burton Watson, p44):
"Followers of the Way, you take the words that come out of
the mouths of a bunch of old teachers to be a description of the
true Way. You think, 'This is a most wonderful teacher and
friend. I have only the mind of a common mortal, I would never
try to fathom such venerableness.' Blind idiots! You go through
life with this kind of understanding, betraying your own two
eyes, cringing and faltering like a donkey on an icy road,
saying, 'I would never dare speak ill of such a good friend, I'd
be afraid of making mouth karma!' "Followers of the Way, the
really good friend is someone who dares to speak ill of the
Buddha, speak ill of the patriarchs, pass judgment on anyone in
the world, throw away the *Tripitaka*, revile those little
children, and in the midst of opposition and assent search out
the real person. So for the past twelve years, though I've looked
for this thing called karma, I've never found so much as a
particle of it the size of a mustard seed."
D: Obviously this is Zen teaching, which is fond of negating
precious assumptions, intending to provide direct access to
enlightenment. No system is perfect. Drawbacks of Zen are an
anti-philosophical philosophy (leading to hundreds of thousands
of texts showing why texts aren't needed), overemphasis on the
self to achieve no-self (leading to exhortation, recrimination,
bullying applied to a self that isn't there), and a ritualistic
reliance on paradox. Having said this - I enjoy Zen stories very
much and thank you for posting this and others. Clearly, Buddhist
writings could be cited ad nauseum on the other side, showing
that karma is considered an established and vital aspect of the
Buddhist darmha.
Zen is the only Buddhist school I've found with teachings that
negate karma and rebirth. The Tibetan school is based on these
concepts. So, it comes down to what is useful, what works. Does
saying there is no karma, and Love will spontaneously provide at
all times work? Perhaps for some, certainly not for others. I
wanted to show that awareness of karma can be useful, at least in
dealing with practical "worldly" realities. Is there
great value to the teaching that Love is All, the no knowledge is
needed, that spontaneously the Way will manifest? Yes, I believe
so. I find myself essentially in agreement with you concerning
*ultimate* reality. The question I raise pertains to how best to
voice that awareness in the world - the world that includes
logic, time, and consequences, as well as transcends these.
Dan:
Without awareness of karma, they wouldn't care about any apparent
beings being hurt (or any apparent beings learning anything
either) because they would see no existing beings. So, why do
they teach, and why do they interact compassionately? Because
they see karma, at the same time they see no entities suffering
from karma.
Terry:
They see the illusion of ego, and the consequent operation of
'karma' as a psychological effect, a delusion. Very real to the
suffering being, yes; this 'cannot be obscured.' But entities and
karma canot be separated, they go together as causes and effects
do; if there are causes, there must be effects. If there are no
entities to have karma, there is no karma to have.
Dan: You say this well. I am essentially in agreement with you
here, although I worded it differently. The karma, seen from an
*ultimate* perspective is unreal. That is why there is no one
suffering from it. Yet its effects on perception in the
phenomenal world are real. That is why there can be said to be
karma, and why teachers teach and interact out of compassion. No
karma - no compassion needed.
Dan: Transcendence is to see that from the first not a thing is,
and yet, simultaneously see that "this is". To see that
there is no cause and effect, and simultaneously, actions have
repercussions.
Terry: Pardon me, my friend, but this just sounds like nonsense.
Dan: Pardon me, my friend, but how do you know this
"nonsense" isn't the spontaneous manifestation of Love,
which as you say is always operating perfectly for the well-being
of all? Well, if what you say is true, then how
"nonsensical" could it be?
T: What is a 'repercussion' but an 'effect'?
D: I don't know - you tell me. I never said a repercussion was
not an effect. You seem to miss my point. My point was "not
a thing is" and "this is". There are no events,
and this occurs. There can be no karma *ultimately* and karma
*relatively*. Remember, it was you who said karma cannot be said
to exist nor not to exist.
Dan:
There is no "me", yet the perception of a
"me" is real to "him" and to "her,"
and how they see "me" behave (and experience
"me" to behave, will affect "him" or
"her"). This is true even though there is no
"him" or "her". All is perception, there is
no perceiver and no perceived object, and love functions in this
perception with awareness of the ripple-effect of actions.
My inferred conclusion as I read your perceptive and thoughtful
writing is that sometimes the actions of one who is aware may
appear paradoxical, yet the reason for the paradox is that the
love expressed is transcendent of norms, not confined by norms,
but comes from recognition of the entirety of karma as a whole,
from being the entire pond, all of the ripples, and yet
expressing simultaneously as a particular ripple interacting with
other particular ripples.
Terry: The whole pond with all its ripples is the universe of
dependent origination, where everything depends on every other
thing, where a kingdom may be lost for the want of a horseshoe
nail, and a typhoon in the sea of japan may be traced back to the
flapping of a butterfly's wing in the amazon river basin.
In practice, however, I do not deny that if you go out and shoot
someone, you are likely to get busted.
Dan: It's not only that, Terry, it's that "you" are
going to "cause" a lot of grief for a lot of
"people".
T: But even then, to apply single causes to single outcomes is
simplistic.
D: I agree wholeheartedly. Events are overdetermined. But in the
practical world, try dealing with people who have no sense of
responsibility, no concern about the consequences of their
actions, and behave toward "others" as if there were no
"others" there to have feelings or reactions!
T: Confucius comments on the first line of the second hexagram of
the I Ching:
"A house that heaps good upon good is sure to have an
abundance of blessings. A house that heaps evil upon evil is sure
to have an abundance of ills. Where a servant murders his master,
where a son murders his father, the causes do not lie between the
morning and evening of one day. It took a long time for things to
go so far. It came about because things that should have been
stopped were not stopped soon enough."
D: Quite so - call it karma (which never belongs to one isolated
individual), call it the unfolding of Now considered from the
perspective of Time, or don't call it anything. The truth is, we
use language and thought, so we call it something, we reflect on
it, we throw the I Ching, or read a book about antisocial
behavior. Human beings use thought and language to understand and
respond to events in terms of their view of situations and
feelings. *Ultimately* Reality can't be understood in these
terms.
Dan: There's no way around it: how this can occur is a great
mystery!
Terry: I suppose you could say that our intuitive, natural
abilities to be in harmony with the universe, which are similar
to those of every other aspect of creation, living and
non-living, are a 'mystery.' But only to the logic-chopping,
practical, imaginary false self.
Dan: I meant "mystery" this way: totally and completely
unknown and unknowable - completely beyond logic. And yes - this
refers to the "little self," not the Big Self. And yes
- the little self, poor fellow, ultimately doesn't have a leg to
stand on. But this Big Self, doesn't he know without any entity
being there, doesn't he manifest perfect Wholeness with no effort
- now if that's not mysterious, what is? To me, the sense of
mystery and awe is a great gift, along with peace and simplicity
these are wonderful gifts of the Spirit. Gifts from no one to no
body. Like Love.
Dan: It transcends logic without destroying logic, just as it
transcends karma without destroying karma. Karma and logic are
the same thing: awareness of cause and effect perspectives. Karma
and logic continue to function, are used when their framework is
useful, and simultaneously are seen in no way to define the
nature of "ultimate reality".
Terry: As you wind it up here I quite agree, and could have
stated it in practically the same terms as you have. It just
doesn't seem mysterious to me. Our practical, task-oriented,
tool-using skills coexist with our intuitive, natural identity
with the universe. I guess my perspective differs in that I
regard the latter as Real and the former as an illusion at best
and a delusion causing great suffering at worst.
Dan: Okay I'll buy that. How about this - nothing is unreal.
There is only what is real. Infinite universes manifest from this
point. .
Nothing manifested anywhere is unreal. There is no delusion to
combat. Seeing delusion is the only delusion there is.
T: To see the phenomenal and the absolute as equal or in some
sort of harmonious balance is a dangerous view, tantamount to
regarding god and the devil as equal powers and granting
negativity equal say in what you do. It is just this granting of
autonomy to the ego which is the essence of delusion and the
cause of suffering.
Consider light and darkness. You can turn on a light, and
darkness instantly vanishes. But darkness has no powers of its
own, you can't turn on the dark, the dark is simply the absence
of light, it has no qualities of its own. This is what nonduality
is all about, there are "not two" substances in the
world, it is a world of light only. The Absolute is True, and
phenomena are a convenient illusion, to be used but never given
power over us.
Dan: Of course, nonduality has "within" it no darkness
that needs to be combatted. That is what is so difficult about it
with regard to orginary thinking and morality. Any darkness that
is shadow of a light, is Light in nondual view. No outside, thus
no inside. No separation, thus no negation, thus no affirmation.
Thus, perfect Peace. Thus, no possibility of "us"
disagreeing ever. You say "black" and I say
"white". No disagreement.
Only Love.
T: Jesus, the great nondualist, explicitly rejected karma,
considered absolute by the rabbis, and embraced forgiveness.
D: The rabbis in no way considered karma absolute. No way, Terry.
It is for this reason that the Day of Atonement is considered the
greatest Jewish holiday. It is a day of universal atonement
(at-one-ment) and universal forgiveness. The rabbis didn't like
Jesus's presumption of authority to tell them what is
"true", particularly didn't like the way he claimed
revelation as his source of truth.
He undermined their whole established socio-political system. But
his views about forgiveness are an extension of views expressed
in traditional Hebrew teachings - only carried to a more
universal and Total Beingness.
T: How could we be forgiven if karma were absolutely true? Taoism
embraces forgiveness, and buddhism does as well. Karma is a
fetter, and justice may be tempered by mercy. Logic won't get you
to heaven.
D: Karma isn't a fetter. Karma is the justice that is tempered by
mercy, the law that is transcended through Love and mutual
forgiveness. Remember, Jesus also was said to have said, "as
you sew, you shall reap." "I have not come to end the
Law, but to fulfill it.
January
15:
Slippery
Insubstantial Guy Slips Away!
by Melody Anderson and
Andrew Macnab
Melody Anderson: Already
this morning I had been noticing how difficult it was to read
yesterday's replies to my posts, and how much I want *out* from
under this child-like expression of hungry or needy child.... and
how much I want to write something to the list that would 'wow'
people, or at least give an answer to something instead of asking
these questions. Damn how I hate this feeling of appearing to
others as 'less than complete', or of 'lagging behind' the rest
of the team!
Andrew Macnab: I'm not surprised that there's someone
like that living in "Melody", there's someone similar
living here in "Andrew". He's a rather slippery and
insubstantial guy, when I look directly at him he kind of fades
away. If I try to grab him he slips right through my fingers,
like grabbing at smoke. He's always trying to get somewhere but
he doesn't actually ever go anywhere. His biggest concern is what
beings he calls 'other people' are thinking about him. These
'other people' are smokelike slippery insubstantial beings like
him. No matter what he hears from these 'others' he's never happy
for long.
January
16:
Undue Attention on
Barry
Anonymous
(contributed by Bruce Morgen)
Oz was fascinating. We spent the
2 weeks a little south of Brisbane on an undeveloped section of
the beach listening to Barry (Long) for a couple of hours per
day. I went walking on the beach nearly every day meditating on
the sensation, how delightful. My biggest concern was keeping
enough cash on hand for mangoes.
Went north to Cairns for a few days, rain forest trips etc, then
spent 5 days in Sydney. Im more oriented towards nature
than cities, but Sydney was very interesting.
I might even consider going back to Oz to see Barry again.
Especially if hes at Cabarita Beach again. Hes in his
mid 70s and warns that although healthy at present, a 5-6
year struggle with cancer could take him at any time.
I have no doubt that he is realized. But of course the expression
of God filtered through any personality is limited. And he
emphasizes as much by warning that one must become independent of
authority as soon as possible in many different ways.
His approach, his comments, are exceptionally creative. For me
hes an extraordinary source of inspiration especially in
terms of metaphysical insight. Yet, I do not feel in anyway that
visiting him has suppressed or redirected my own individuality.
Our eyes meet briefly many times during the course. And I usually
felt an indescribable quickening of awareness, an upwelling of
sensation/energy, an expansive leap beyond mental association
with limitation. But the same happened, for example, on
unexpectedly seeing the full moon rising over the ocean. So I
certainly dont want to place undue attention on Barry.
My personal practice continues to evolve. My usual technique of
recognizing & negating identification with limitation is
still required. But more & more it seems that all that can be
done is to take a small shift into subtler focus, awareness of
the subtle energy of the body, the usual heaviness or substance
of the body is refined into subtle energy, especially coursing
upwards from the chest/solar plexus, sometimes this energy leaves
awareness completely separated from association with senses /
thought. Sense awareness & thought may continue but are seen
as if from a very great distance, a distance so great that the
observer could NEVER associate itself with anything external.
Mysterious and indescribable! For a while I was thinking: I can
enter this by putting attention on the solar plexus (as Barry
describes in some book, a kundalini yoga approach), or by
stilling thought directly (a neti-neti Gyana Yoga approach) which
is superior? Which is best for me? But, alas, such thinking
implies effort or distance to be covered & there is no effort
in Being.
words fail....
January
17:
Criteria to Fine
Dust
by Gene Poole
Michael: Can
a person seek challenges, disruption and crisis subconsciously?
Gene: Moving through life with 'patches'/compensations
for (assumed by normal standards) 'failure' is this very form of
seeking. This action is continuous and produces effects...
Michael: How does the subconscious mind fit in with the
concept of awareness?
Gene: In that 'realm' are stored the 'buffered'
information which are the criteria for valid-invalid, good/bad,
productive/nonproductive, etc. A person comes to represent those
criteria, and acts as though those criteria are valid. These
criteria are the challenge, the dare, which is the
above-mentioned action of seeking. Overall and over time,
refinement may take place, as all criteria are ultimately
replaceable/disposable.
Awareness OF this ongoing dynamic of error-checking (the
interplay between consciousness and criteria) can free one from
the assumed necessity of taking it seriously. Thus is born a
higher-level routine of error-checking, and so on, ad infinitum.
The challenge is to exist with (over time)
exponentially fewer critera for error-checking, always becoming
aware of the birth of higher-level routines of error-checking as
'mere activities of consiousness', leading to 'no criteria for
Being'.
Michael: How do feelings and emotions fit in with the
concept of awareness?
Gene: Such phenomenon can be understood as the product
of the interaction of consciouness WITH specific criteria; the
dangers inherent to holding ANY criteria are thus easily
represented by such feelings and emotions. Such can be seen as
yet another error-checking routine in action; the problems arise
in the interpretation, of what is as neutral as the
'engine-check' light on the dashboard instrument-display of a
car.
Sensory perception is mirrored to the hypothalamus, which
dictates emotion. If sensory information is not 'raw', the
(buffered in the 'subconscious') biasing criteria will entrain
the resultant neurohormonal products into a form which reflects
the distorted sensory information; this distortion, projected as
'what is seen', is meant to act as a goad to keep us in balance.
We are attracted to harmonious 'states' and repelled by chaotic
ones. Problems arise when (introjected) criteria define the value
of any state; the goal is to allow a return to the 'natural' or
'original' empty-of-criteria condition. In this condition, all
data is accurately reflected, producing feelings which are an
actual accurate reflection of what is being perceived. The peace
(lack of aversive feelings) resultant from this condition, are
the self-reward of 'bliss'.
Michael: Feeling like my heart is going to jump out of
my chest, like my solar plexus is churning...what does this mean?
Gene: Conflicting critera are producing a storm of
neurohormonal/endocrine products; the search for balance
follows/is concurrent with this experience. When we stray to the
right, the red light comes on; when we stray to the left, the
blue light comes on. Neither-light-on means on-course; on-course
enables clear-light illumination, VIS, neither red nor blue. This
is a repicturing of the essential, built-in navigational power of
the Human Being; peace is the criteria for maintenence of
direction. This is 'why' we love peace.
Michael: I admit that expressing feelings is new to me
and many times produces pain and suffering inside me after I
verbalize them or just write them down as I do now.
Gene: Thank you for applying for higher-level
error-checking.
Michael: Could this be a result of energy stirring up
inside me and producing an out of balance effect as far as my
inside and outside world?
Gene: 'You' are refining introjected criteria, to find a
'valid' you. What will you eventually find?
Michael: How does one know when they have experienced
"awareness"?
Gene: This is when 'you' recognized that 'you' are the
only criteria, over, above, and independent of any criteria; this
is when you are free of any criteria. It is also when you glimpse
the possibility of this; that to be independent of any criteria
is to be self-generating on no grounds whatsoever.
Michael: How do you, on this list, define bliss?
Gene: See above discussion of 'no-error' signals
produced by low-level error-checking routines (the 'subconsious'
and its self-balancing activities of seeking).
Michael: How does bliss feel in the world of
relationships?
Gene: One facet I can report, is the peacefull awareness
that there is nothing wrong with something being wrong. It is the
awareness of abiding in the dynamic balance of self-balancing; it
is further, the heartfelt desire to extend this awareness, in
relationship.
Michael: What is the cycle of awareness, consciousness
and bliss composed of? Is there a standard? Or is it different
for each personality based on their own "stuff", which
they have inside them?
Gene: Presumed 'self', when validated by criteria, is
always at threat; no (defined) self exists when no criteria are
held. Leaving behind criteria, over time, is represented by this
cycle you mention. The movement 'left-right-center' is always
happening, and is represented in every facet of our experience.
It is a completely neutral, and unstoppable, mechanism for
survival. It will eventually crush ALL criteria to essence; going
'with' it is bliss, fighting/resisting is only possible when
criteria are held. Any held criteria will be ground to a finer
and finer powder in the mills of the gods; it is all 'grist for
the mill'.
Michael: I don't even know why I am asking these
questions...I am aware that I am asking them, I am aware that
feelings and emotions are stirring up in me strongly as I write
them.
Tim has been a big help to me in understanding surrender. I guess
I have to experience surrender to really understand it.
Gene: It is necessary to ask such questions; by these
means are the higher-level error-checking routines spawned. We
are built in such a way that this is all inevitable; and it is
good that we see that something is wrong, and it is good to see
that seeing what is wrong, is the possibility of continuance. It
is also good to recognize the essentially automatic nature of all
of this, and to step out of it's way. It itself, never needs
fixing.
January
18, 2000
All Out Sonny and I
contributed by
Andrew Macnab
RIDDLE:
What do the following have in common?
Insult and a loony. Annually sod on it.
Loony, anal nudist. Lousy and not nail.
Until and as loony. Unload on nastily.
Us and notionally. Annoy in lads lout.
Unload on saintly. Loony in an adults.
In sod to annually. Stood in annually.
Annual loons tidy. Annoy lout island.
Unload saintly no. In Satan on loudly.
An adult, loony sin. Loony and in a slut.
Sod into annually. Lout and nosy nail.
Lout and in as only. Only unload saint.
Anal loons untidy. No! nastily unload.
Undo saintly loan. Nosy and in all-out.
Sun notional lady. Annoy on as dull it.
Nationally. Sound. Lout annoys in lad.
Lout and sly anion. Undo sly national.
Odious, tall nanny. I, annually sod not.
Silly and on an out. Annoy insult load.
Is an only and lout. Sunny and tail loo.
No! annually sod it. Lout load as ninny.
Ninny as adult loo. On a dull it annoys.
Disloyal noun ant. Lousy land on an it.
Anal loony in dust. Old ninny as a lout.
On insult on a lady. Annually do to sin.
Is not. Annually do. Lusty and in a loon.
ANSWER: They are anagrams of Nonduality , and they come from the Anagram Genius
January
20:
Bhakti Analysis
by Michael Rosker
Introduction by Greg Goode, Ph.D.
Michael Rosker had
about 15 years' sincere and devoted experience in various
charismatic and bhakti paths, and later, came to the
advaita/non-dualist path. I asked Michael to offer some insights
based on his long experience. In a nutshell, he says that these
paths, as they are sometimes practiced in the U.S., *can* involve
certain excesses that harm someone's self-esteem, and might even
depend on a previous lack of self-esteem in the new devotee.
Since Michael pretty much hit just the high points in his essay
below, I'll fill in some details. He began the spiritual search
in the late 70's because of health problems. Over the years, he
has been a very faithful devotee of at least 4 famous schools
with charismatic leaders. He also spent time with a few
individual gurus, while not as charismatic as other teachers,
nevertheless combine a bit of advaita philosophy with bhakti
practices and psychotherapeutic recommendations, or sometimes,
just plain psychological manipulation. During this time, about a
decade-and-a-half, he experimented, doing things like:
-all kind of diets: ayurvedic, macrobiotic, yogic, raw foods,
blood-type, vegan, vegetarianism, high-protein
-banging his left shoe on the ground to make the spiritual or
physical problem go away
-stopping having sex with his wife
-on retreats, digging 4-foot holes in frozen ground in
mid-winter, then immediately filling them back up
-meditating 6 hours a day
-chanting several thousand rounds a day to a personal, very human
guru
-never seeing the sun except on his way to work
-losing about 50 pounds (now he's healthier than ever, but still
skinny!)
For Michael himself, most of the time on these paths, he was
miserable, angry, or depressed. But for the last 2 years, he has
been investigating non-dualism. This started when he met a
teacher who talked to him person-to-person, as a peer, as though
nothing needed fixing, acknowledging that he's not a child, not
broken, etc. With this great shot in the arm, Michael's
investigation continued until it came to the end of all
questions, the end of all answers. Now he's very happy, a loving
and radiant presence. People go to him for support, healing, help
of all kinds, and love. There's lots more to say, as Michael's a
very good friend. But I'll stop and let his essay speak for
itself. --Greg Goode, Ph.D.
Bhakti Analysis, by Michael Rosker
What is it that would make an intelligent, successful and
educated person abandon even his most fundamental common sense
and accept a philosophy or code of living that in any other
situation would only be described as stupid? In the bhakti
tradition as it has been transplanted in the U.S., that is
exactly what has happens. Normally, after spending a lifetime
fortressing oneself into a self imposed prison of self-indulgent
misery one comes across an experience of no limitation. After
which, of course comes the compulsion to have this experience to
be permanent. The old way of living, in comparison has become
intolerable. At this point one is likely to turn to a number of
spiritual paths that make claims to fulfill this longing. Since
this newly born spiritual aspirant has no experience in the
metaphysical world, he is likely grant spiritual teacher
liberties that he would not normally even consider. From then on
one could spend years banging their left shoe in the dirt or
prostrating themselves before a number of 8x10 glossies. Or
chanting every morning in Sanskrit, "If the Lord Hari is
angry, then the Guru protects you. But if the Guru is angry with
you, then no one can save you." This might all done in the
name of "purifying the mind."
But surprisingly enough, I haven't come across one legitimate
case where this has actually taken place. What it does do
however, is to create a new group of "low esteem
children" who blindly follow whatever mommy or daddy guru
tells them. Now this is not as grim as it seems. There are indeed
wonderful benefits from this type of surrender. What I've
discovered from many bhakti's is that for the most part they seem
to have some "healing your inner child" agenda going
on. Where this is concerned there can be some great healing
taking place. One can begin to feel the love, acceptance and
protection that had not been established early in life.
Currently, there is no provision in the Bhakti charter for
graduation to adulthood. If at some point in the aspirant's
evolution these belief systems come into question, he will be
told one of many quasi poetic, remotely metaphysical buzzwords to
squash any attempted escape. One of these might be "It is
only the Ego that wants to know," or "It is beyond the
mind." Since low self-esteem is one of the prerequisites for
becoming a Bhakti, it will be difficult if nearly impossible to
extricate oneself from this self-deception on one's own steam.
In my own case, it took the help of a spiritual teacher named
Francis Lucille. This was the first time, after many years of
earnest seeking where someone of unquestionable realization had
sat and spoken to me as an equal. I remember after one of his
talks, him sitting next to me on the rug, talking for a half-hour
while everyone else was socializing around us. The experience was
one where I couldn't be sure who was contributing what in the
conversation. It was literally contiousness speaking with itself.
I remember exclaiming aloud at the end of that evening that I had
indeed become an adult Now, this recognition was only the first
step, enabling to walk on my own two feet. There still was the
task at hand to weed through the many layers of misunderstandings
and inferences that maintained the jail cell I called Michael.
Fortunately for me, I came across an experienced gardener who had
the insight to see beauty hidden behind the overgrowth and had
patience enough to yank them out of the ground, without
disturbing the flower.
January
21:
The Deepest Secret
by Skye Chambers
We are all way
beyond glorifying dis ease, confusing it with holiness or using
it as a learning process for the personality. There is no longer
any point or necessity in using it to prove to oneself (or
others) the strength of ones inner life, no need for such
crutches.
From the words of Gangaji; who is helping me out of my ignorance,
as you all are.
"The great gift that Ramana offers you as his own Self is to
be still. To not look to the mind as the reference point of who
you are, mind being thought" mental thought, physical
thought, emotional thought, circumstantial thought. To be still.
What can be said about what is revealed in stillness?
Nothing has been said that can touch it. Much has been said that
points to it. Words such as enlightenment, realization, Self,
Truth, God, Graceall of these words point to that.
The moment they are conceived as some thing they
point away from that. And then you begin this ridiculous practice
of comparing yourself with someone else. All in the hopes of
reaching something, or leaving some-thing. And these all based on
the idea that you are some thing.
"Who you are has no need of, no desire for, no fear of
either ignorance or enlightenment. You are free of these
concepts. Ignorance points to not realizing that. And
enlightenment points to realizing that. But the moment you cling
to any concept of ignorance or any concept of enlightenment as
reality, you are already in the experience of ignorance again.
You see how subtle the workings of the mind are? How subtle?
YOU ARE NO THING AT ALL! Everything that appears,
appears in you, because of the vastness of the mystery of you.
When you identify yourself as some thing something
mental, something physical, something emotional, something
circumstantial and you believe this identification to be real,
you overlook the reality of the vastness of being who you are. It
is so utterly simple. This is what has held it as the deepest
secret.
So all of your strivings, all of your practicings, all of your
comparing, all of your taking notes on, is realized to be
worthless. In this moment of realization of the worthlessness of
that, there is ultimate freedom. If there is the slightest
clinging to that as worthwhile, as worth something, there is once
again being caught in identification.
The opportunity for the mindstream that you have identified as
yourself, the opportunity is, in the midst of that, to real-ize
you are that animating force that gives the mindstream its
apparent power. This can be realized immediatelyin simply
being still. You will never realize it by searching for it in
thought. You may have intellectual understanding, and I would say
you all have this intellectual understanding, but you arent
satisfied with that, because you will never be satisfied until
you embrace yourself, the truth of who you are. Luckily you will
never be satisfied. You will not settle for second best. Luckily.
This is the greatest giftthis gift from Ramana, through
Papaji. This opportunity to stop, midstream, to stop, and
recognize who you are. All discussion before that and after that
is worthless, is some mind game. Maybe beautiful, maybe
horriblebut worthless.
January
22:
Invisible
Leadership: Igniting the Soul at Work
by Robert Rabbin
A Book Review by Shirley Bell
(Softcover/218 pp.,
Lakewood, Colorado: Acropolis Books, 1998, $14.95)
reprinted from the current issue of Noumenon
An interesting,
remarkable and visionary book. The author, who is also a business
consultant in the spiritual mode (which these days really means
caring about people and their potential, offering ways of
acquiring greater self-knowledge as a prerequisite for change,
and nurturing all living things, including the planet), pays
particular attention to values (especially vs behaviour), the
need for awareness, the disturbing growth of soullessness, the
fundamental role of silence, the need to hold one's personal
truthfulness sacrosanct, and the vital attributes essential to
leaders across the spectrum in the 21st century.
He eschews models, paradigms and patterns (although he is not
above using the latter two descriptively himself). He is fierce,
frank, intuitive, convinced and always entertaining.
If I have to select a specific something from this thoroughly
worthwhile book, it is one of his discussions on values, which he
embeds in an anecdote from his corporate experience.
Invited by a company president to assess the expression by the
staff of corporate values in day-to-day activities and
interactions, he refuses to view their corporate values
documents or subject staff members to surveys or
questionnaires. Instead, he chooses to use his mute
assessment tool; that is, for three days he walks around
keeping his own counsel and watching people work. After that, he
is able to tell the president what their actual values are, based
on the way they conduct themselves in the course of their work.
(This), he says, is the true values document:
how people behave... (these) are their values-in-action, which
are the only values worth paying attention to. To superimpose a
set of idealized behaviours on top of our actual behaviour is a
sure way to institutionalize hypocrisy.
... it is pure nonsense to think that what we say and what we do
are two separate things which must be brought into proximity...
We might think that our real values are what we say they are, but
that is a delusional conceit. Our real values are expressed in
our actions, in what we do and how we do it. Our actions never
contradict our values: our actions are our values. (p. 87)
When we fail to live up to the values we claim are ours, the
reason is that these are not our real values at all. Our real
values are manifested in what we think, say and do. If we
want to know what we value, then we have only to watch what we do
and how we do it...
We act from what we are.
If there is a flaw in this warmly recommended book, it is that
the writerin company with many other writers in this
genremakes it appear too easy: self-knowledge; focused
attention; perceptions about what is truly valuable; insights
that come as much from experience and practice as from
Eureka moments; holding personal truth inviolate;
understanding silence; evolving one's intuition; honouring all
things great and small, animate and inanimate; offering
practical, humane, deeply spiritual leadership; serving life...
This is not following a path; this is blazing a trail. And
blazing a trail is one of the greatest challenges in the world:
stimulating, creative, life-giving, lonely, heroic... but never
easy.
Not everyone starts from the same place. We have to take account
of this and warn that the path is long and hard. Otherwise, many
quickly feel inadequate to the challenge andnot realising
that they are sharing a common experiencegive up too soon.
Shirley Bell
For further information about Robert Rabbin, visit his website
at: http://www.robrabbin.com