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Saturday July 7th


Freedom

no need for the moon
nor need for sun and planets
sunshine without cause

Jan





Oh boy!

You tricked yourself into being all the forms and beings.
Such a good trick!
You have given yourself the great amnesia.
You, the infinite self pervading all the universes, once in a while,
just for fun, try to cure yourself of your own amnesia.
What a drama!

So - what will you do today?

Nothing - Everything - no difference!

HAHAHAH and HOHOHO!

Peace - of pi - Michael





Found on Usenet from James Allison



Though I cannot put my finger on it, nor can I quote it verbatim, I am
reminded of the Whitman poem where he said (paraphrased):

I could live with the animals.
They are so self contained.
They do not lie awake at night
Weeping and worrying.
There is not a one of them
That bows to one of their own kind
Who lived years ago.

I know exactly where I stand with my cats. They are not nice to my face
and critical of me to my back. This is not to say that they don't get
pissed at me at times... But when they do, they let me know in no
uncertain terms that they are pissed. And all I have to do is rectify
whatever it was/is that is pissing them off, and everything is once
again alright with no grudge or secret disdain.

And they know to come to me when they are in some kind of trouble or
have some kind of problem. Yet they also have a sense of those things
over which I have no power. I have had a number of them just disappear,
never to be seen again. But this is rare and only happens when the
circumstances are beyond intervention.

> Tomorrow morning I will sit in silence and be with you in spirit... you are
> a good man AW.
There is an axiom that the only REAL success in life is spending one's
time the way one WANTS to spend one's time. And for those who have this
compulsion to worry about one's relationship to goodness, it is an
evidence of their doubt.

A person whose attitude is one of care-free abandon, who doesn't worry
about what they should do, but rather just does what seems to be
efficacious at the time for THAT occasion, and then whether it turns out
well or otherwise has no recriminations or regrets... That person is
healthy in a spiritual way.

Those who are constantly mindful of their and others relationships to
whatever it is that they are in constant supplication or apprehension
are the spiritual equivalent of a hypochondriac. The problem is that in
spiritual hypochondria, there is no one who can help, for those who are
spiritual hypochondriacs believe themselves to be in favor and anyone
who would tell them to just drop all the bullshit concerns MUST be some
kind of infidel.

Those who most want you to listen to and accept their religion are those
who least want to listen to and accept another's religion. And those who
most want others to be tolerant of them are the least tolerant of
others.

This never occurs among my cats.

There isn't a doubt in the world that what they do isn't the right thing
to do at the moment. I try to learn that lesson from them and act out of
immediate comprehension of the right thing at the right time.

It isn't, of course, always the right thing that gets done, but at least
it is not done with any deviousness, nor with the idea of taking
advantage.

And I think that THAT is what makes plotting a good tryst so much fun.
The intrigue of having things affect multiple levels and having the plan
interlock so that what happens is the result of having understood,
planned, and then have the whole thing fit together and come out just
like it was hoped, brings satisfaction.

Alas, life and the day to day, ever changing, hour to hour, custom made,
minute to minute existence is so manifold and complex, that it isn't
possible to completely prepare for every eventuality.

It is the difference between training and rehearsing. The difference
between Boxing and Dancing.

The Dancers rehearse and then the performance is done with every move
pre known.

But Boxers train, and are then thus prepared to take improvisational
action depending on the circumstances, even when the opponents are
trying to confound and out-do the other.

My father used to say that after you've seen the three
MuhammedAli/JoeFrazier fights, that there just wasn't much boxing left
that wasn't inferior and less than what was possible.

Life is more a boxing match than a ballet performance.

How well we handle it (life) is an indication of how good a man (or
woman) we are.

And Perfex handled even her demise with style and grace. She will be
buried in the same manner. She deserves nothing less.

Hope you are well.



Dolores use to have dreams about dancing with her cat in life size. As for
Walt,
all I can say is "Yo, Walt, hello?, they're ANIMALS, that's why they don't bow
to
their own kind who lived years ago." sheesh.

Jerry
(reincarnated publisher who probably rejected Whitman's poetry)





Hi everyone,

Some time ago, there was a link posted, either here or on Jerry's website,
which pointed a site that included, among other things, a series of
questions designed to aid in the self-inquiry process. I remember the list
as being fairly long and the questions as being unusually penetrating and
provocative.

Can someone help? I once printed out the questions but can't locate them
now. I want to use them in a group I'll be leading in a few weeks.

Thanks in advance,

David


Here it is, David:
<http://www.heartspace.org/writings/essays/1995/question.html>

It's from Phil Servideo's website, which I see has been re-designed and
updated.

Jerry





The secret of innocence



DREAM SKY wide open!
wide open WIDE
Dreaming JUST of you
to LIGHT this night!

Sex me up!
Get in!
Get up!
I desire to fly!
tonight!
fly high!
Take me!
up the sky

NOW!

I'm wait!
for a moment
a light flash
remains in the night!

THUNDER
I screem THUNDER!
LIGHT ALWAYS LIGHT
broken in pieces
falls off the night

a SCRATCH in the sky
BRIGHT SPARKLING LIGHT!

one by one
peace by peace
little by little
surrenders
the night!

BRIGHT YELLOW LIGHT
vibrates the hight
CRACK!!!

CRACK CRACK CRACK!!!
CRACK me open!
Let's take the flight!

DREAM!
DREAM with me
Yes DREAM with me
to LIGHT this night!

ENTER!
enter your realms!
DREAM! You are dead!
IMAGINE! I am alive!
WONDER! We are dead alive!

LOOK!
Look look look

eyes wide open
arms open wide
legs wide spread
wide spread wide
DREAMING just of you
to LIGHT this night!

SKYDIVE!
Fuck me ALIVE!
DEAD no more!
OFF to your shore!
RUSH I hush!
MORE I whore!
WU!
You and I and YOU!
Come in!
COME!
SWIM!
dive in me!
BREAK through my core!

Mr. and Ms. WELCOME YOURSELF


a little intense
I am your innocence
just a little girl
I am your innocence
sex up with me!

GET UP GET UP!!

marvelous carousel of flagrant desire
gorgeous shiva swerving curves
blump lips and open dreams
mmmmmmmmmmhXahhhhhhhhhhhh
I suck you dry you FUCK me alive!
putrid bag of rotting sweat
I'm softly calling you
just one more round
one more!


SEX up!
dare you!
get on!
SEE me!

Mr. and Ms. WELCOME YOURSELF


DREAM! You are dead ...
IMAGINE! I am alive ...
WONDER! We are dead alive!


THANK YOU!
You're welcome!
Who said LOL!
If you would NO!

Mr. and Ms. WELCOME YOURSELF

TERMINATION
NOW enters HERE
crowning the virgin
queen of the night
CRACK!
prince of the dead
AGAIN in delight!




if you are like someone a little diffrent,
read the virgin of flowers:
http://welcomeyourself.freeyellow.com/here.html


>From and for the light in all of you
I am in love with ALL ... of you
Don't forget me :-)
You are my love!

In love with you
I am in love with you
Your love that radiates from you
I'm in love with you
someone strong
who sees beyond
my darkness
that surrounds your love
pierce my darkness
with your light
and find my love is hiding YOU

light loves you
I am in love with you.




All in love
love in All
children of the light
I am in love with All of you
love is our friend
I'm in love with you
light loving you



LIGHTS
LIVING
OF LOVE
LOVING YOU
LOVING YOU
LOVING ME
LOVING YOU
LOVING YOU
FROM WITHIN

INDULGE ME
INDULGE ME
ALIGHT
INDULGE ME
INDULGE ME
ALOVE
INDULGE ME
ALIFE
ALIFE
ALOVE
AND ALIGHT
INDULGE
INDULGE
IN MY DREAMS
************ ************ ************ ************ ************



I wish!
I wish I was your mirror
Dream Mirror Dream!
I told my mirror
you are my dream
my dream is your imagination!
I am your mirror!
Imagine Imagine Imagine!
Imagine I was your mirror!
what would I say if I was you?
what would you say if you were me!
fuck me!

I am your mirror!
I told nobody I am your mirror
Your imagination is my dream!
what would you say if you were me?
what would I say if I was you!
dream
Yes dream!
dream with me
to light this night!




Dear Spirit Guides,

Like most mortals I have accumulated over the years several
"possessions" which seemed of value: i.e., a small amount of
cash savings, a few pieces of furniture and household items,
a PC, a camera, a music keyboard, and, until yesterday, a
troubled old vehicle called "Heather".

Heather's troubles suggested it was time to let go of her and
opt for a more physical lifestyle, so I gave her to a friend who
suspected there was some life left in the "old gal". Thereupon
I noticed with surprising clarity a residue of uncertainty and
dependency with regard to unresolved need for comfort. This
is understandable considering the intimate relationship and
communication between Heather and myself over the years.
We got along beautifully until her functioning and looks began
seriously to fade.

There was certainly strong evidence that by releasing Heather I
enabled a clearer view of the interconnectedness of things. Yet at
the same time it was obvious that the perception of material
temptations was considerably heightened; I can see now why
some "Gurus" turn out to be "dirty old men". But I didn't drop
Heather just to lust for some hot new curvy model Corvette
convertible. I've got better things to do. ;-)

Nope, dear Spirit Guides, its time to walk the talk, or maybe
grab a cab when the weather is drab.


Vintage Ed-sel.

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