I
AM THAT
Dialogues
of Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj
2. Obsession with the body
Questioner:
Maharaj, you are sitting in front of me and I am here at your feet. What
is the basic
difference
between us?
Nisargadatta:
There is no basic difference.
Questioner:
Still there must be some real difference, I come to you, you do not come
to me.
Nisargadatta:
Because you imagine differences, you go here and there in search of
‘superior’ people.
Questioner:
You too are a superior person. You claim to know the real, while I do
not.
Nisargadatta:
Did I ever tell you that you do not know and, therefore, you are
inferior? Let those who invented
such
distinctions prove them. I do not claim to know what you do not. In
fact, I know much less than
you
do.
Questioner:
Your words are wise, your behaviour noble, your grace all-powerful.
Nisargadatta:
I know nothing about it all and see no difference between you and me. My
life is a succession of
events,
just like yours. Only I am detached and see the passing show as a
passing show, while you
stick
to things and move along with them.
Questioner:
What made you so dispassionate?
Nisargadatta:
Nothing in particular. It so happened that I trusted my Guru. He told me
I am nothing but my self
and
I believed him. Trusting him, I behaved accordingly and ceased caring
for what was not me, nor
mine.
Questioner:
Why were you lucky to trust your teacher fully, while our trust is
nominal and verbal?
Nisargadatta:
Who can say? It happened so. Things happen without cause and reason and,
after all, what
does
it matter, who is who? Your high opinion of me is your opinion only. Any
moment you may
change
it. Why attach importance to opinions, even your own?
Questioner:
Still, you are different. Your mind seems to be always quiet and happy.
And miracles happen
round
you.
Nisargadatta:
I know nothing about miracles, and I wonder whether nature admits
exceptions to her laws,
unless
we agree that everything is a miracle. As to my mind, there is no such
thing. There is
consciousness
in which everything happens. It is quite obvious and within the
experience of
everybody.
You just do not look carefully enough. Look well, and see what I see.
Questioner:
What do you see?
Nisargadatta:
I see what you too could see, here and now, but for the wrong focus of
your attention. You give
no
attention to your self. Your mind is all with things, people and ideas,
never with your self. Bring
your
self into focus, become aware of your own existence. See how you
function, watch the motives
and
the results of your actions. Study the prison you have built around
yourself by inadvertence. By
knowing
what you are not, you come to know your self. The way back to your self
is through refusal
and
rejection. One thing is certain: the real is not imaginary, it is not a
product of the mind. Even the
sense
‘I am’ is not continuous, though it is a useful pointer; it shows where
to seek, but not what to
seek.
Just have a good look at it. Once you are convinced that you cannot say
truthfully about your
self
anything except ‘I am’, and that nothing that can be pointed at, can be
your self, the need for
the
‘I am’ is over -- you are no longer intent on verbalising what you are.
All you need is to get rid of
the
tendency to define your self. All definitions apply to your body only
and to its expressions. Once
this
obsession with the body goes, you will revert to your natural state,
spontaneously and
effortlessly.
The only difference between us is that I am aware of my natural state,
while you are
bemused.
Just like gold made into ornaments has no advantage over gold dust,
except when the
mind
makes it so, so are we one in being -- we differ only in appearance. We
discover it by being
earnest,
by searching, enquiring, questioning daily and hourly, by giving one's
life to this discovery.