To be sure, we
all have a great deal to learn from each
other. However, the process of subtle
arrogance and self deception in the
spiritual arena is perhaps the most
damaging of all illusions. I am a
Buddhist, or a Yogi, or a Pagan, or a
student of the Fourth Way or the Kaballah
or some other mystical or ecclectic
school, and I imagine that Christians are
at least somewhat deluded. Or I am a
Christian, perhaps a Catholic or an
Evangelical, or a Course in Miracles
student, or a Muslim, or a Jew, and
maintain some pretense that my version of
“God” or “Love” is somehow
more accurate than “theirs.” But
in fact, when we think “Jesus said
so-and-so,” or “The Buddha taught
thus-and-such,” we might ask
ourselves, “How would I know, and why
am I repeating this?” If we face it
sincerely, it is hard to avoid the
discovery that all we are doing is trying
to justify our own opinions and their
connected feelings, perhaps seeking to be
tied in with some powerful authority
figure(s) which is fortified by our own
conditioning. So we each have our private
and group stories about things, and
continue to surreptitiously elevate
ourselves and put each other down.
But in fact,
there is no private liberation or
salvation. (Where is the “one
separate” from the rest, to be saved,
except in some mental fiction?) Of utmost
importance, finally, is putting an end to
this devious and hurtful process of
“spiritual ego,” of imagining
thereÂ’s some kind of competition, and
that thereÂ’s someone who has to defend
his or her particular spiritual turf
against others. If you stop using your
transient body or your thoughts or
feelings as points of reference, it will
be obvious that there is no
“someone” and there are no
“others.” That whole thing is a
paranoid fantasy, a pathological delusion,
in this case in the name of whatever
religion to which we happen to subscribe.
So letÂ’s call a spade a spade: God,
the Absolute, does not belong to anyone,
nor to any particular group.
(So why pay homage to a limited god?)
Furthermore,
Enlightenment, Self Realization, does not
belong to anyone either. (In fact,
everything belongs to Enlightenment. So
why pay homage to a limited
enlightenment?) Although it may occur in
virtually any context - Buddhist,
Christian, Yogic, Sufi, Hindu, Fourth Way,
Muslim, Taoist, Jewish, Wiccan, 12-Step
work, shamanistic, agnostic, scientific
and so on, Spiritual Awakening, the
Realization of Emptiness, the Tao, cannot
be owned. How could That which is infinite
be possessed by any religion, tradition,
path, lineage, teacher, or hierarchy, all
of which are limited? Is God a Christian,
or a Jew, or a Muslim? Is Enlightenment
controlled by Buddhists or Yogis or
Hindus? How could That which is formless
be made to conform toВ anyВ set of
assumptions about liberation, past or
future? (If you still find yourself
resisting that possibility, you might ask
yourself how you would know, one way or
the other, and what motives are tied up in
thinking about it in any specified way,
for or against. Why maintain beliefs or
disbeliefs at all?) Is truth a really a
matter of subjective opinion? Is not
truth, if that word means anything at all,
an ongoing process of careful observation
and uncompromised, undefended honesty?
ItÂ’s time
we stop pretending, subtly or overtly,
that our particular group is superior in
some way. ThatÂ’s a hidden way of
saying, “I’m superior,” (and
therefore not inferior). LetÂ’s bring
our woundedness, our childhood fears and
hurts of inferiority, covered over by the
pretense of individual or collective
superiority, to a total and absolute halt.
Completely. Now. If we need to weep, then
letÂ’s weep together. And let those
tears of shame be tears of relief, tears
of joy, in finally putting down this
burden of trying to defend and justify
what we have imagined ourselves to be.
What doesnÂ’t exist doesnÂ’t need to
be defended. It never did.
Particularly in
recent years, many of us have had very
powerful awakenings, but these
experiences, in and of themselves, do not
mean that much unless we allow ourselves
to be transformed, completely, by what we
have discovered. If we try to use them to
validate our religious and peer identities
and opinions, with our various secret and
subtle motives and perceptions so shaped,
we corrupt our awakening, and are already
entangled in delusion. (And when we make
ourselves or our group or our path or the
teacher weÂ’ve identified ourselves
with special, we make ourselves separate.)
The most any spiritual institution can do
is to support and celebrate what is
already real and true without reservation.
Full awareness,
peace, freedom, clarity and joy can, and
do, only exist now. If any of us still
find ourselves suffering from the symptoms
of ignorance, divisiveness or competition,
that is to say, fear, envy, anger, sorrow,
frustration, disappointment, jealosy,
self-loathing, guilt, depression,
loneliness, despair, or confusion, it is
because we are still negotiating with God,
still negotiating with Truth, still
negotiating with Love, still negotiating
with Freedom, still negotiating with
Serenity. The pain is none other than the
agony of lying to ourselves about what we
want more than anything else. It is like
finally finding the lover we have always
longed for, but holding back in terror of
losing that love.
Why put this
moment off? That which you seek is That
which you already are, and always have
been - you are not separate, youВ cannot
be separate from the Absolute, from
Infinite Consciousness Itself. If you dare
to stop pretending that you and your life
are based on some mental version of things
that arises out of memory, you will find
out beyond any doubt! This is not some
kind of wishful thinking or grandiose
mental trick. Rather, with total and
unflinching sincerity, with no
psychological defense or self deception
whatsoever, search your heart and find out
what you permanently are, what youÂ’ve
been all along. Find out if there has ever
been a separate “Other.” If you
discover there never has been an other, is
there one now? Could there ever be? Why
pretend anymore?
If you dare to
give your heart, your soul, your mind,
your body, and your life, unconditionally,
to what you discover to be true, you will
know an infinitely deep and abiding peace
that has never been even a breath away.
This bliss, this tranquility depends on
nothing, and It is not capable of ending.
Furthermore, it doesnÂ’t make a bit of
difference what youÂ’ve ever doneÂ…
or not done. You can put an end to the
battle. Yes, thatÂ’s correct, just walk
right out of the war, right now. All you
have to do is surrender, absolutely and
completely, not to me, not to some
authority figure, or some organization or
institution, but surrender only to your
own deepest Purity.
God and
your own Unbounded Love are not
different. If you truly give yourself up
completely, it will shock your whole
system. It will suddenly dawn on you,
“Oh my
God, what a fool IÂ’ve been! What was
I thinking?”
Then the
absolute insanity of giving yourself to
anything else will become apparent. Why
wait? Why put off your own complete and
total liberation? In your innermost and
outermost places, in every single moment,
Love waits for you everywhere. Is there
really something else you would rather do?
Is it possible that the thing that you
fear the most, the thing that you avoid
the most, is what you truly desire the
most? It cannot abandon you. Even if you
choose to ignore It, betray It and walk
away, It is always closer than your next
breath. Suspend all opinion and debate,
and find out for yourself.