Questioner: I am so ushered into
the Self during the transmission on Wednesdays and am able to
access the non-local awareness which is free and blissful. It is
home and there is the recognition that everything else is
projected as my beloved. Yet during the day I forget. Why?
David Spero: There is no answer
to that "why." Just release your realization back into
the innocence from which it emerged. Let go of all expectations
that the Self remain. Also appreciate that this forgetting
happens in the Self, not outside It. And be grateful for the deep
level of realization you are describing. Visit David Spero's website: http://www.davidspero.org
I
am three weeks into the annual month-long “Big Mind”
retreat at the Zen Center in Salt Lake City with Genpo Roshi. I
am enjoying being here and I am learning a lot but I also get
that there is something happening to me that is hard to explain
or put my finger on, some subtle change in how I am being.
Last night Genpo Roshi asked to speak to the
voice of the Spiritually Enlightened One. As people began
speaking from this voice it was obvious that also present was the
shadow of the Spiritually Enlightened One, the Spiritually
Un-Enlightened One(s) and the Spiritually not yet Enlightened
One(s).
As we sat with the voices we felt the tension
that arises out of the duality of considering ourselves
Spiritually Enlightened and Spiritually un-Enlightened. We felt
the tension of considering ourselves superior to some and
inferior to others. We simultaneously held the joy and
satisfaction of the experience of having achieved Spiritual
Enlightenment and the shame and feelings of inadequacy from not
having achieved it.
As we sat with this duality it became clear to
me that every thought or idea that I attach myself to, no matter
how lofty I may consider it to be, is just another way that I
separate myself from my true nature and from others.
Later that evening as I made my way back to my
dormitory I decided to call a friend. I have not known her very
long and we have only briefly spoken about my interest in “spiritual”
pursuits.
She asked me how my meditation was going and I
told her I was practicing a new technique of seeing thoughts as
“just thoughts” that pass through my mind and not the
truth. Suddenly it was if some great weight had been lifted from
her and said “Holy cow, everything is just nothing!”. I
watched my mind as I tried to analyze what she had said and
fathom how she could have come to this understanding and then I
just stopped and said “Yes, everything is nothing”.
We said good night with a sense of completion
and well being. All that was there to say had been said.
You Are The Answer
If God Is Everywhere And Always Far And Near,
How Could She Be Everywhere, But Not Right Here?
If God Is Not A Him And God Is Not A She,
Am I Doing Everything And God Is Always Me?
The Energy In The Mountains And Also In The Sea,
Isn't That Same Energy, Always In Me?
As I Drop All Excuses Of Things And How They Should Be,
I See I Make All The Choices, It Is Always Just Me.
It’s Not That I Am God, Rather, God Is My Reality.
If All Energy Is In This Moment And Not The Bye And Bye,
What Makes It So Mandatory, That I Age And Die?
The Life Force Is Always With Me And Knows That "I
AM" Me,
Why Not Simply Listen And Love Everyone, And Just BE?
How Could I Die Anyway, When God And I Are One?
The Whole Universe Is Creating, For Me To Play In And Have Fun!
Yes, God And I Are One, God And I Are One.
Now I Know What Love Means, As It Teaches That, God And I
Are
ONE!
Carson Attaway
Geza writes...
What does it take to understand
non-duality completely?
an IQ close to zero
which is a potent dose of SELF-intoxication,
which is non-duality's godless "god-intoxication"
of Masts.
-- wreally reality
The Stopwatch called
Meditation.
The word meditation is as
meaningless as
the stopwatch it certainly needs
to get off from the Treadmill called Life.
And if the stopwatch and the
Treadmill
do not make meditation very meaningless
then what makes meditation Really meaningless:
all the formalities, position, posture, rote, rhetoric and ritual
meditation needs
to be as important as
the Treadmill
and its stopwatch.
-- Wreally reality
More and more Modern Meditation is all
about a stopwatch we need to get
out of the society's rat-race, just long enough, so that
-- AFTER
MEDITATION -- we can then jump back into society's rat-race
and run
faster and better than Buddha and even Jesus could have imagined.
Unless meditation is a process of being in the NOW --
unless meditation is a process of doing everything possible to
rearrange
"life"
so that the time becomes more and more meaningless
so that Now can somehow Awaken...
unless Meditation is some sort of process of Awakening Now
it can ONLY serve the rat-race
that society and its religions certainly need
to run faster and faster after success, wisdom, wealth, fame,
gods and
demons,
pleasure and its masochistic pain...
It's Part 3 of The Century of the
Self, a BBC documentary from 2006. Freud's
influence, Wilhelm Reich, the battle for power in the world
of psychoanalysis. Sixties political protests and the energetic
connection to Reich. The inner transformation movement, Esalen
and EST and how they compare. How business learned how to market
self-actualization by joining up with Maslow.
Very well done. It's a hour long, but I
think once you start watching it, you'll want to watch the whole
show. It ties together lots of aspects of the public search for
the Self. Werner Erhard of EST seems to be the most nondual,
declaring that the human being is nothing and that out of that
realization or glimpse, one acts freely, or more freely. (I
realize it's dangerous to talk in relative terms
about self-realization.)
Good to see Werner
Erhard speaking and to watch people undergoing all the
developmental processes that were so popular in their day. Of
course we're much more sophisticated nowadays.
I
am three weeks into the annual month-long “Big Mind”
retreat at the Zen Center in Salt Lake City with Genpo Roshi. I
am enjoying being here and I am learning a lot but I also get
that there is something happening to me that is hard to explain
or put my finger on, some subtle change in how I am being.