Nonduality Presents
ASMI
Excerpts from Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj's I AM THAT
compiled and edited by Miguel-Angel Carrasco
Numbers after quotations refer to pages of the edition by Chetana (P) Ltd, Bombay, 1992.
The goal: Liberation through Self-Realization.
The gospel of self-realization
The idea of enlightenment is of utmost importance. Just to
know that there is such possibility changes one's entire outlook.
It acts like a burning match in a heap of saw dust. A spark of
truth can burn up a mountain of lies. The very hearing of it is a
promise of enlightenment. (100-101)
The possibility becomes a certainty when the notion of
enlightenment appears in the mind. Once a living being has heard
and understood that deliverance is within his reach, he will
never forget it, for it is the first message from within. It will
take roots and grow and in due course take the blessed shape of
the Guru. (275)
The gospel of self-realization, once heard, will never be
forgotten. Like a seed left in the ground, it will wait for the
right season, and sprout and grow into a mighty tree. (182)
Just puzzling over my words and trying to grasp their full
meaning is a sadhana quite efficient for breaking down the wall.
(192)
All your going and coming, seeking pleasure, loving and hating -
all this shows that you struggle against limitations,
self-imposed or accepted. In your ingnorance, you make mistakes
and cause pain to yourself and others, but the urge is there and
shall not be denied. The same urge that seeks birth, happiness
and death, shall seek understanding and liberation. It is like a
spark of fire in a cargo of cotton. You may no know about it, but
sooner or later the ship will burst in flames. Liberation is a
natural process and, in the long run, inevitable. But it is
within your power to bring it into the now. (474)
Without it [self-realization], you will be consumed by desires
and fears, repeating themselves meaninglessly in endless
suffering. Most of the people do not know that there can be an
end to pain. But once they have heard the good news, obviously
going beyond all strife and struggle is the most urgent task that
can be. You know that you can be free and now it is up to you.
Either you remain forever hungry and thirsty, longing, searching,
grabbing, holding, ever losing and and sorrowing, or go out
wholeheartedly in search of the state of timeless perfection to
which nothing can be added, from which nothing taken away. In it
all desires and fears are absent, not because they were given up,
but because they have lost their meaning. (331)
To know that the known cannot be me nor mine, is liberation.
Freedom from self-identification with a set of memories and
habits, the state of wonder at the infinite reaches of the being,
its inexhaustible creativity and total transcendence, the
absolute fearlessness born from the realization of the
illusoriness and transiency of every mode of consciousness - flow
from a deep and inexhaustible source. To know the source as
source and appearance as appearance, and oneself as the source
only is self-realization. (395)
There can be progress in the preparation (sadhana). Realization
is sudden. The fruit ripens slowly, but falls suddenly and
without return. (332)
The preparation is gradual, the change itself is sudden and
complete. Gradual change does not take you to a new level of
conscious being. You need courage to let go. [If you lack
courage,] it is because you are not fully convinced. Complete
conviction generates both desire and courage. And meditation is
the art of achieving faith through understanding. In meditation
you consider the teaching received, in all its aspects and
repeatedly, until out of clarity confidence is born and, with
confidence, action. Conviction and action are inseparable. (492)
There are no steps to self-realization. There is nothing gradual
about it. It happens suddenly and is irrevocably. You rotate into
a new demension, seen from which the previous ones are mere
abstractions. Just like on sunrise you see things as they are, so
on self-realization you see everything as it is. The world of
illusion is left behind. (331)
With some, realization comes imperceptibly, but somehow they need
convincing. They have changed, but they do not notice it. Such
non-spectacular cases are often the most reliable. (291)
The experience [of self-realization] is unique and unmistakable.
It will dawn on you suddenly, when the obstacles are removed to
some extent. It is like a frayed rope snapping. Yours is the work
at the strands. The break is bound to happen. It can be delayed,
but not prevented. (502)
All will come through, not a single soul (jiva) shall be lost.
(377)
For some time, the mental habits may linger in spite of the new
vision, the habit of longing for the unknown past and fearing the
unknown future. When you know these are of the mind only, you can
go beyond them. (509)
[When the mind goes] emptiness remains, awareness remains, pure
light of the conscious being remains. It is like asking what
remains of a room when all the furniture is removed. A most
serviceable room remains. And when even the walls are pulled
down, space remains. Beyond space and time is the here and now of
reality. (423)
You will recognize that you have returned to your natural state
by a complete absence of all desire and fear. After all, at the
root of all desire and fear is the feeling of not being what you
are. Just as a dislocated joint pains only as long as it is out
of shape, and is forgotten as soon as it is set right, so is all
self-concern a symptom of mental distortion which disappears as
soon as one is in the normal state. (332)
[On realization] That which cannot change, remains. The great
peace, the deep silence, the hidden beauty of reality remain.
While it cannot be conveyed through words, it is waiting for you
to experience for yourself. (476)
Then, even in the body, you are not born. To be embodied or
bodyless is the same to you. You reach a point when nothing can
happen to you. Without body, you cannot be killed; without
possessions, you cannot be robbed; without mind, you cannot be
deceived. There is no point where a desire of fear can hook on.
As long as no change can happen to you, what else matters? (469)
On realization, you feel complete, fulfilled, free from the
pleasure-pain complex, and yet not always able to explain what
happened, why and how. You can put it only in negative terms:
"Nothing is wrong with me any longer". It is only by
comparison with the past that you know that you are out of it.
Otherwise, you are just yourself. Don't try to convey it to
others. If you can, it is not the real thing. Be silent and watch
it expressing itself in
action. (332)
The enlightened one (gnani).
Somehow it was very simple and easy in my case. My guru,
before he died, told me: "Believe me, you are the Supreme
Reality. Don't doubt my words, don't disbelieve me. I am telling
you the truth, act on it". I could not forget his words and
by not forgetting, I have realized. Once the guru told me:
"You are the Supreme Reality", I ceased having visions
and trances and became very quiet and simple. I found myself
desiring and knowing less and less, until I could say in utter
astonishment: "I know nothing, I want nothing." (390-1)
I was undeceived, that is all. I used to create a world and
populate it. Now I don't do it any more. [Now I live] in the void
beyond being and non-being, beyond consciousness. This void is
also fulness; do not pity me. The mind ceased producing events.
The ancient and ceaseless search stopped - I wanted nothing,
expected nothing, accepted nothing as my own. There was no
"me" left to strive for. Even the bare "I am"
faded away. The other thing that I noticed was that I lost all my
habitual certainties. Earlier I was sure of so many things, now I
am sure of nothing. But I feel that I have lost nothing by not
knowing, because all my knowledge was false. My not knowing was
in itself knowledge of the fact that all knowledge is ignorance,
that "I do not know" is the only true statement the
mind can make. (392)
By looking tirelessly, I became quite empty and with that
emptiness all came back to me except the mind. I find I have lost
the mind irretrievably. I am neither conscious nor unconscious, I
am beyond the mind and its various states and conditions.
Distinctions are created by the mind and apply to the mind only.
I am pure Consciousness itself, un-broken awareness of all that
is. I am in a more real state than yours. I am undistracted by
the distinctions and separations which constitute a person. As
long as the body lasts, it has its needs like any other, but my
mental process has come to an end. My thinking, like my
digestion, is unconscious and purposeful. I am not a person in
your sense of the word, though I may appear a person to you. I am
that infinite ocean of consciousness in which all happens. I am
also beyond all existence and cognition, pure bliss of being.
There is nothing I feel separate from, hence I am all. No thing
is me, so I am nothing. Life will escape, the body will die,
but it will not affect me in the least. Beyond space and time I
am, uncaused, uncausing, yet the very matrix of existence.
(221-2)
Having realized that I am with, and yet beyond the world, I
became free from all desire and fear. I did not reason out that I
should be free, I found myself free, unexpectedly, without the
least effort. This freedom from desire and fear remained with me
since then. Another thing I noticed was that I do not need to
make an effort; the deed follows the thought, without delay and
friction. I have also found that thoughts become
self-fullfilling; things would fall in place smoothly and
rightly. The main change was in the mind; it became motionless
and silent, responding quickly, but not perpetuating the
response. Spontaneity became a way of life, the real became
natural and the natural became real. And above all, infinite
affection, love, dark and quiet, radiating in all directions,
embracing all, making all interesting and beautiful, significant
and auspicious. (269)
The person is what I appear to be to other persons. To myself, I
am the infinite expanse of consciousness in which innumerable
persons emerge and disappear in endless succession. (528)
The person, the "I am this body, this mind, this chain of
memories, this bundle of desires and fears" disappears, but
something you may call identity remains. It enables me to become
a person when required. (488)
Nothing troubles me. I offer no resistance to trouble - therefore
it does not stay with me. On your side there is so much trouble.
On mine there is no trouble at all. Come to my side. (192)
What is added to memory cannot be erased easily. But it can
surely be done, and in fact I am doing it all the time. Like a
bird on its wings, I leave no footprints. (399)
The world is like a sheet of paper on which something is typed.
The reading and the meaning will vary with the reader, but the
paper is the common factor, always present, rarely perceived.
When the ribbon is removed, typing leaves no trace on the paper.
So is my mind - the impressions keep on coming, but no trace is
left. (225)
Your world is transient, changeful. My world is perfect,
changeless. You can tell me what you like about your world - I
shall listen carefully, even with interest, yet not for a moment
shall I forget that your world is not, that you are dreaming. In
mine, the words and their contents have no being. In your world
nothing stays, in mine nothing changes. My world is real, while
yours is made of dreams. My world has no characteristics by which
it can be identified. You can say nothing about it. My silence
sings, my emptiness is full, I lack nothing. In your world I
appear so [with a name and shape, displaying consciousness and
activity]. In mine I have being only. Nothing else. I am my
world. My world is myself. It is complete and perfect. I need
nothing, not even myself, for myself I cannot lose. In your world
I would be most miserable. To wake up, to eat, to talk, to sleep
again - what a bother! (79-81)
To me nothing ever happens. There is something changeless,
motionless, immovable, rock-like, unassailable; a solid mass of
pure being-consciousness-bliss. I am never our of it. Nothing can
take me out of it, no torture, no calamity. (191)
[My condition is] absolutely steady. Whatever I may do, it stays
like a rock - motionless. Once you have awakened into reality,
you stay in it. It is self-evident and yet beyond description.
(192)
All the three states [waking, sleeping, dreaming] are sleep to
me. My waking state is beyond them. As I look at you, you all
seem asleep, dreaming up worlds of your own. I am aware, for I
imagine nothing. It is not samadhi , which is but a kind of
sleep. It is just a state unaffected by the mind, free from the
past and future. In your case it is distorted by desire and fear,
by memories and hopes; in mine it is as it is - normal. To be a
person is to be asleep. (453)
The world of mind and matter, of names and shapes, continues, but
it does not matter to me at all. It is like having a shadow. It
is there, following me wherever I go, but not hindering me in any
way. It remains a world of experiences, but not of names and
forms related to me by desires and fears. The experiences are
qualitiless, pure experiences, if I may say so. I call them
experiences for the lack of a better word. They are like the
waves on the surface of the ocean, the ever-present, but not
affecting its peaceful power. (406)
I can see with the utmost clarity that you have never been, nor
are, nor wil be estranged from reality, that you are the fulness
of perfection here and now and that nothing can deprive you of
your heritage, of what you are. You are in no way different from
me, only you do not know it. (424) Be fully aware of your own
being, and you will be in bliss consciously. Because you take
your mind off yourself and make it dwell on what you are not, you
lose your sense of well-being, of being well. (96)
You people do not know how much you miss by not knowing your own
true self. (213)
The moment you know your real being, you are afraid of nothing.
Death gives freedom and power. To be free in the world, you must
die to the world. Then the universe is your own, it becomes your
body, an expression and a tool. The happiness of being absolutely
free is beyond description. (139)
The ordinary man is personally concerned, he counts his risks and
chances, while the gnani remains aloof, sure that all will happen
as it must; and it does not matter much what happens, for
ultimately the return to balance and harmony is inevitable. The
heart of things is at peace. (527)
The particular is born and reborn, changing name and shape, the
gnani is the Changeless Reality, which makes the changeful
possible. The entire universe is his body, all life is his life.
As in a city of lights, when one bulb burns out, it does not
affect the network, so the death of a body does not affect the
whole. With me, all is one, all is equal. (184)
The Guru is basically without desire. He sees what happens, but
feels no urge to interfere. He makes no choices, takes no
decisions. As pure witness, he watches what is going on and
remains unaffected. Victory is always his, in the end. He knows
that if the disciples do not learn from his words, they will
learn from their own mistakes. Inwardly he remains quiet and
silent. He has no sense of being a separate person. The entire
universe is his own, including his disciples with their petty
plans. Nothing in particular affects him, or, which comes to the
same, the entire universe affects him in equal measure. In
reality, the disciple is not different from the Guru. He is the
same dimensionless centre of perception and love in action. It is
only his imagination that encloses him and converts him into a
person. (342)
He [the gnani] is alone, but he is all. He is not even a being.
He is the beingness of beings. Not even that. No words apply. He
is what he is, the ground from which all grows. (181)
A gnani commands a mode of spontaneous, non-sensory perception,
which makes him know things directly, without intermediary of the
senses.
He is beyond the perceptual and the conceptual, beyond the
categories of time and space, name and shape. He is neither the
perceived nor the perceiver, but the simple and the universal
factor that makes perceiving possible. (532)
His [the gnani's] state tastes of the pure, uncaused, undiluted
bliss. He is happy and fully aware that happiness is his very
nature and that he need not do anything, nor strive for anything
to secure it. It follows him, more real than the body, nearer
than the mind itself. To me, dependence on anything for happiness
is utter misery. Pleasure and pain have causes, while my state is
my own, totally uncaused, independent, unassailable. (179)
As he [the gnani] gets older, he grows more and more happy and
peaceful. After all, he is going home. Like a traveller nearing
his destination and collecting his luggage, he leaves the train
without regret. The reel of destiny is coming to its end - the
mind is happy. The mist of bodily existence is lifting - the
burden of the body is growing less from day to day. (180)