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Jerry offered:

There were two elders living together in a monastic cell,
and they had never had so much as one quarrel with one
another. One therefore said to the other: Come on, let us
have at least one quarrel, like other men. The other said: I
don't know how to start a quarrel. The first said: I will
take this brick and place it here between us. Then I will
say: It is mine. After that you will say: It is mine. This
is what leads to a dispute and a fight. So then they placed
the brick between them, one said: It is mine, and the other
replied to the first: I do believe it is mine. The first one
said again: It is not yours, it is mine. So the other
answered: Well then, if it is yours, take it! Thus they did
not manage after all to get into a quarrel.

---from The Wisdom of the Desert, Thomas Merton

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Skye offered:

IS THINKING RUINING YOUR LIFE?

It started out innocently enough.
I began to think at parties now and then to loosen up. Inevitably
though, one thought led to another, and soon I was more than just a
social thinker.
I began to think alone - "to relax," I told myself - but I knew it
wasn't true. Thinking became more and more important to me, and
finally I was thinking all the time.
I began to think on the job. I knew that thinking and employment
don't mix, but I couldn't stop myself.
I began to avoid friends at lunchtime so I could read Thoreau and
Kafka.
I would return to the office dizzied and confused, asking, "What is
it exactly we are doing here?"
Things weren't going so great at home either. One evening I had
turned off
the TV and asked my wife about the meaning of life. She spent that
night at her mother's.
I soon had a reputation as a heavy thinker. One day the boss called
me in. He said, Skippy, I like you, and it hurts me to say this, but
your thinking has become a real problem. If you don't stop thinking
on the job, you'll have to find another job."
This gave me a lot to think about.
I came home early after my conversation with the boss. "Honey," I
confessed, "I've been thinking..." "I know you've been thinking,"
she said, "and I want a divorce!" "But Honey, surely it's not that
serious." "It is serious," she said, lower lip aquiver. "You think
as much as college professors, and college professors don't make any
money, so if you keep on thinking we won't have any money!"
"That's a faulty syllogism," I said impatiently, and she began to
cry. I'd had enough. "I'm going to the library," I snarled as I
stomped out the door.
I headed for the library, in the mood for some Nietzsche, with the
NPR (Nature of Personal Reality) station on the radio.
I roared into the parking lot and ran up to the big glass doors...
they didn't open. The library was closed.
To this day, I believe that a Higher Power was looking out for me
that night. As I sank to the ground clawing at the unfeeling glass,
whimpering
for Zarathustra, a poster caught my eye...
"Friend, is heavy thinking ruining your life?"
You probably recognize that line. It comes from the standard
Thinker's Anonymous poster.
Which is why I am what I am today: a recovering thinker.
I never miss a TA meeting.
At each meeting we watch a non-educational video; last week it was
"Porky's." Then we share experiences about how we avoided thinking
since the last meeting.
I still have my job, and things are a lot better at home. Life just
seemed... easier, somehow, as soon as I stopped thinking.

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Glo:

[...]
>You know, I almost hate to mention that ego word again..but does anyone else
>suspect that transcending can sometimes be just another survival skill for
>that pesky ego? Sorta like realizing the gig is up with the bodymind, so as
>a last resort, it says"ok, I'll identify with the universal then".... Or is
>being an enlightened egoist considered normal around here?


Andrew:

Normal? uh oh.
Does the meaning of the above questions change if
the word "awareness" is substituted for the word ego?
In other words, can ego be universal ego, and if so,
is it then the same as universal awareness?
Or is ego always defined by a barrier?


Jan:

One meaning of "transcend" is: To pass beyond the limits of: "emotions that
transcend understanding" (The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English
Language).

This is interesting, because in the case of "ego", the meaning should be:
"understanding that transcends emotions". It is very convenient to forget
the all-time taboo, that of dying. Self (Sat Chit Ananda) is independent of
mind-body so in theory the emotions have to be transcended as well. It will
be clear this is impossible and if this is impossible, it is likely
transcending is always a kind of survival or intellectual jugglery. There
is nothing to identify with, as there is only Self. Before all
identifications are burned down ( by K.), they will have to be given up
first. People can be made to give up (surrender) almost anything (like
"me", "bad" habits), but not their emotions :)

Ivan:
the word ego is an impediment by definition. If
there is no impediment, then and only then, ego is not.
But an expanded awareness is still an object trying to
appear as "the presence". Unity is not any kind of object
that can be pointed to....and I am not stating that you are
projecting such object, but that would awlready be an impediment
and indication of ego -- although many will refute this statement.

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Skye Chambers wrote:


One needs to be a brave warrior to question the collective wisdom
and find out for oneself the fact of the matter.
One needs to be fearless and daring to proceed
where many talk of but few dare go – so one is often
castigated and misunderstood for that boldness.


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Marcia:

I find when I am doing the most talking I am doing the
least going.

As far as castigation and misunderstanding goes it seems
to me that only those advertising their boldness suffer
from that.

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Andrew:

There is infinite continuum
from what we speak of here
to one thing , 2 things, 3.......
and from stillness to constant
movement.
Every one of the infinite number
containing the entirety.
So that each of us as human beings
is the universe,
which is changing
at a constant variety of rates
from unchanging constancy
to continuous total annihilation
and simultaneous reconstruction.

All awake.

In all of this,
the temporal sequence of knowing
is odd; upon intellectual discovery
it feels as if it was always known
in another way, but not consciously
recognized, as if intellectual
knowing provides a voice.

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Antoine responds to Gene's post:



> > "Sésame ouvre toi" (Sesame open yourself) said the little kid to the
> > door containing the treasure of the 40 thief's. And the door opened by
> > itself.
> >
> > Antoine
>
> Greetings, Antoine. I will try to fulfill your wish.
>
> I think of the movie "The Matirx"... how the 'agents' (enforcers of the
> world-dream) lived 'inside' every dweller of the Matrix, and thus could
> 'take over' and thus be on-the-spot for enforcement of world-dream ethics.
> The goal of the 'agent/enforcer' is to deny the possibility that anyone
> will escape the matrix/world-dream.
>
> In the same way, it is not the _external_ enforcers which are our actual
> worry; it is the internal ones. That is, it is the existence of the
> internal voices and ethics of our social conditioning which on a continuing
> basis, draw abitrary (chosen) boundaries, and dare us to cross them. As in
> the movie, our 'only choice' is to _run like hell_ when the agent/enforcer
> arrives from within, because in our experience, those agents have _always_
> defeated us.

Antoine:
It was Neo only choice, to stick to the film, until he comes over is
experienced fear of death _inside_ world-dream ethics. He becomes King
and resurrected Jesus of his world dream.

> Likewise, in our dual existence (actual AND world-dream realities, both)
> when we get to a certain place, the map says 'here be monsters', yet we
> 'know' (as a result of study and intuition) that the map is incomplete and
> inaccurate. We dare to face the monsters, yet when they appear, we run
> away, back to the security of 'not knowing' (agnostic) as a way of Being.
> It is much safer to 'not know' then to 'know', if what is known is death,
> extinction, suffering, pain, torture.

Antoine:
Or what is known is also, life, eternity, joy, pleasure, love.
"Monsters" in a way no to forget.

I love to sleep, a place of not knowing as others.

"If I'm dreaming, never let me wake. If I'm awake, never let me sleep."
"There are two perfect men; one dead, and the other unborn."
Chinese Proverbs

Gene:
> The subtle refinements which characterize the movement (transformation)
> into the nondual, give us the power to question the existence of the
> monsters which stand guard at the boundaries of the world-dream. We may at
> some time, perceive those monsters/agents/enforcers as nothing but symbolic
> representations of our own fear. At that point, does the journey of the
> hero really begin.

Antoine:
It's where the film ends, and it all starts.

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From Petros:

(Following is an excerpt from a small unpublished book of satsang dialogues
with Neelam called "In this Moment." It was compiled spontaneously by a
devotee of Neelam and is now circulating around a few people. [ ])

These satsangs took place in England in the Fall of 1997, I think.


FEAR OF MISSING IT: "What do you mean by 'you'?"

Q. I was hoping to visit Poonjaji in October. Now he's no longer here.
Have I missed something?

Neelam. You're missing something right now. That fear needs to be
experienced in this moment. There's no need to wait for anything. As you
are willing to actually do it, you will discover if you are missing
something or not. Fear you don't see. Is the fear present here?

Q. It's like being the odd man out.

N. But before that description, what is the experience? What is the very
quality? What are the sensations?

Q. A sense of heat and of being closed off in my heart.

N. So just stay here. The sensations are present here.

Q. I feel like time has stopped. I feel this love for you.

N. Not even a moment in time, do you see? In that instant there is no
missing. Everything is absolutely, purely available here, you see. And
that is the bare essence of Papaji, as it is the very essence of you and of
everybody. Trust enough in this and everything will sort itself out.

Q. Can you guarantee that 'the God in you' will provide everything?

N. The moment there is a guarantee, then you want something to hold onto.
And in that you create what makes you suffer again. Therefore, what is this
whole business with guarantees? After all, we are not selling something.
First look and discover what you mean by God. What do you mean by 'you'?

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